In a bout of insomnia, I was going through my phone for options for ringtones. I had just recently switched it from Hello Time Bomb by Matthew Good Band to Lights by Ellie Goulding, which I experimented a few times before finally ending up using the bridge.
I scrolled around and stopped on a song that I fell in love with a few years ago.
Nothing's in the Flowers by Company of Thieves.
I wondered if I had become lost.
In the past year or two I have become very focused on career, and with that, a shift in mindset. Had become a positive minded pop infused caricature of myself?
Don't get me wrong, I like pop music, but my wheelhouse is alt rock, and most of that falls into darker themes. Nothing's in the flowers is a song about not really having a home, which I relate too because I feel and act closed off in my house because of how my relationship with my parents is.
I wondered if I had begun to close all of that off, despite all of it still bothering me. Get what I mean by caricature?
Truth be told, I've grown. The people in radio school taught me a lot, which moved me to a more positive mindset. I haven't lost the shadows, I have begun to look at the light instead of focusing on the darkness. I've told a few of them of the positive change, but as my career and life progress, I hope that I will be able to emote to them the great change they inspired.
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