loneliness
here i sit with friends in my house feeling like an outcast in my house...the girl i like so much is here...everyone here is drunk cept me...and im not even getting payed attention by her...and everyone who is here besides shane is drunk..and i know if i leave or go to bed...something bad is gonna happen..i dont know what to do i care so much for and about her...but to know alcohal is involved and all judgment is impared it saddens me...i feel like im nothing...i am nothing im just a nice guy who gets walked on...because...i chose to let it happen...becasue im a big loser ive never cared more about someone then i have for this moment..but to know im so close yet so distant...i dont feel like i belong anymore do i?...everyone else is getting attention and shes not paying attention to me...like it matters...what matters is i care for her and she claims the same..but im not seeing i wish i knew what she was thinkin...and im clouded by the love i feel for her...please help me