Change can be so apparent...
And then again so hidden. Its crazy that the last time I wrote in my lj was 04' just to let you know that WAs the best summer ever, but I'm not so sure why and nothing really important happened hmm oh well. Since then there has been so much obvious change, really good changes. It takes so much work for my changes to not sink and I'm trying to figure out my next move. Haha Kinya I wish I'd have accepted you on me and you and phillip living together but then again your leaving the next year and then what would happen another fucking change. gaaa its great but it sucks. But i've atleast figured out one step...I think May I'm taken the damn act, I have to. I'll get loans, I'll have to. And try to make it to school fall semester like you said even if its just one or two classes its something. I may have to move back in with my mom bc frank and beverly are probably going to end up living here and that sucks a lot so ya know some of the changes you make are bc you yourself make them and others aren't really under your control. I was really happy not being dependent on my parents, but I'm not in a phase where I can be completly dependant on myself either I sooo wish I were able to. I depend on rachels dad and I didn't even realize it. And this is why I do have to go to college so I don't have to depend on anyone. Just myself, money wise anyway.