my hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me.
UPDATE. as if anyone reads my shit anyways. i guess now i just update for my health. hmm oh well.
so i found out i can go to the formal. 9 days. haha counting down. i mean yeah its only an 8th grade thing.. but its before high school.. and i dont know. for some reason.. im waiting for it. agh. anyways. so not much has been goin on. been grounded. so that sucks.
about this whole love thing. love can blow me. i mean, you think youre so fucking happy and capable of having a relationship and all and you think 'oh this could never go wrong'. but then it does. all of the sudden its all over? what shit it that? i think im just gonna stop everything. no more boyfriends for a while. no love for a while. i think i just need to vent. and just.. get over it all. and i am. slowly. i mean.. youre always gonna have feelings for the people you love and you'll always have that special feeling when the person you were/are in love with when they call or something. i mean.. i dont know. maybe i have this totally wrong. but everyone has their own definition of love. but whatever. its not my deal to figure out what other people think of love. and its not anyone elses to try and figure out mine. i just hope hes happy. which im sure he is. i mean, why wouldnt he? its going well isnt it? i wouldnt know. we dont talk anymore. but anyways. im out.