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I keep saying im fine, but im not... everyday now it's the same thing... realize im a senior, this will be my last year of high school... they say a persons high school years are the best, the happiest... i've had a total of 7 months where i was actually happy... and its only gonna get harder as in the next few months i will ultimately make decisions that will effect the rest of my life... i think about my future, and i wonder what im gonna do with my life... i have not a clue... and i realize only a handful of my friends know what thier going to do, and all everyone else wants to do is play video games... i used to be a big gamer... i now have about 7 or 8 videogames i still have yet to beat, but i just don't want to play them... video games are becoming increasingly boring to me, i wish i had more of a social life... but my social skills suck, i can't even talk to a new person unless they talk to me first... i hate being down in this basement, day after day... i spend my life down here... i have had my drivers license for about a week now... and i still have not driven anywhere... i never go anywhere... i never do anything... but i don't know what to do... i don't know what i want outta life, i know one thing though... i wish to be happy...