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[that_girl_420]

absorbing your words
oh how they burn
struggling with
your malicious intent
you pretend your life
is so simple, that your so  decisieve
but infact your constantly
in doubt
constant confrontation isn't
helping this relationship
your to sure of yourself
you'll always think that I'll awalys
be there for you, no matter
what you've done to me in the past
and for the first time in my life
I swear to it, that i'm walking
out on somethign I shbould have
done along time ago
and this time, i won't be calling you
begging for one more chance
I won't be there when you need me
to nurse you back to sobriety
which is rather contradicting because
you'll just slip back into your deadly
intoxications moments later
then you'll feel at ease once more,
and hurt me with your darkened
words and actions and once again
i'll be crying, and feeling worthless
oh how you can make me feel
worthless
of course you'll come around
and apolojize and say you need me
i'm beggining to think that you need me
for all the wrong reasons
not to mend a broken heart
but  to  ease your deepest insecurites
when your hurting me is temporality masking
your own pain making you feel
in control
and this pattern of abuse
will only get worse
and there is jsut so many times
i can let you back in my life
and i've never been so
desperate for your love
but I'm forcing myslef to
leave becuase
it will be the best thing
 I could ever do