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so what to talk about. for one noone reads this thing and i pretty much use this thing to let out some steam or something like that. but yeah right now i dont know what to do anymore. i dont know if i have made the right decisions. and nothing feels right anymore. i spend much of my time getting stoned and thinking about the days months and years that have gone by and how i was then and how i am now. so much has changed and probally for the worse cause nothing really gets better for me but thats just the hand i was dealt in life. and i am still tired of having to act the part of the idiot. any group of friends i have chosen to be with or ever will i seem to play the moron and they have to tell people that i dont know that i am a moron and to just to ignore me. but i have done it so long i dont really know how to act anymore. but whatever hopefully i'll be dead in a couple of years