wow
my life is fucked up!!!
i know that i made it this way but whats it going to take for things to work out. i mean everyone hates there life at some point in time but it just seems that i've fucked my self way to fucking hard on this one. i really didnt think much of it until i was with sierra at her moms house after she had gotten all her stuff moved in. we sat around for a while talking about dumb shit when i noticed that after 10 years of "gorwing up" we still ended up in the same place we started out. after school, after moving out of state, almost getting married, and countless apartments we have nothing to show for the past 10 years at all. well maybe some good stories but mostly bad ones.
we always seem to get in so much shit with each other but i think tonight we hit an all time low. even tho i was just along to make sure sierra would be ok i was still there and i still knw what happend. do you think karma knows about this??? lol
how do you fix so many things you have done wrong?
how do you know when your karma is clean again ?
do the people that you hurt forget what you did to them?
and if so how long does this take?
i know if i distance myslef for a while i can put my life back in order but there are two things wrong with this...
1. that never happens for me, the reason i go back to doing the things i do is because being "nice", "normal" (whatever you want to call it) just never works for me. ever!
2. no matter what i do thats fucked up or shitty i know that sierra will always be my fucking best friend ever. even if i was a crack smoking whore. i dont want to be without a friend like that. so many people have stoped talking to me at one point in time because of something i was doing or had done or even rumors but never sierra.
i think she might just be the only real friend i have.
bleh i need nick and a nap
i know that i made it this way but whats it going to take for things to work out. i mean everyone hates there life at some point in time but it just seems that i've fucked my self way to fucking hard on this one. i really didnt think much of it until i was with sierra at her moms house after she had gotten all her stuff moved in. we sat around for a while talking about dumb shit when i noticed that after 10 years of "gorwing up" we still ended up in the same place we started out. after school, after moving out of state, almost getting married, and countless apartments we have nothing to show for the past 10 years at all. well maybe some good stories but mostly bad ones.
we always seem to get in so much shit with each other but i think tonight we hit an all time low. even tho i was just along to make sure sierra would be ok i was still there and i still knw what happend. do you think karma knows about this??? lol
how do you fix so many things you have done wrong?
how do you know when your karma is clean again ?
do the people that you hurt forget what you did to them?
and if so how long does this take?
i know if i distance myslef for a while i can put my life back in order but there are two things wrong with this...
1. that never happens for me, the reason i go back to doing the things i do is because being "nice", "normal" (whatever you want to call it) just never works for me. ever!
2. no matter what i do thats fucked up or shitty i know that sierra will always be my fucking best friend ever. even if i was a crack smoking whore. i dont want to be without a friend like that. so many people have stoped talking to me at one point in time because of something i was doing or had done or even rumors but never sierra.
i think she might just be the only real friend i have.
bleh i need nick and a nap