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wow, so it's been years.. or what seems like years.. I was reading over my last entries and various comments that were left.. and I realized how sad it is that I don't / hardly talk to any of those people anymore. I understand that life takes you down unexpected paths, and people do change.. but a little part of me still is saddened by my realization. Life can't ever go back to the way it used to be, but when I think of all the awesome/shitty times that I had to experience.. it is not the experiences that pain me, but its the realization that I have lost people that used to be very close to me, that helped me thru and made me smile at the drop of a hat... I drifted away from connections, it was just easier that way.. I didn't want to have to fight for anything, and even now I believe myself to be a lazy friend... I try to be aware and fix what I have come to regard as a horrible character trait that I have been blessed with.. but to no avail...
this entry is to apologize to those, whom likely don't even read my journal anymore, but need to know that I wish things had ended differently.. but life moved on, and so did we... I can't go back and certainly don't believe that the current paths that we are on would ever make us regret anything we have done...
people are shitty, circumstances are shitty, life continues...
this is such a random entry, but I kinda needed to put it down in words
till next entry...