Been awhile...
Well...where to start? um,
I got straight A's. Kevin always says, "See? I knew you would do well. All that stress for nothing." But the thing is, it's not for nothing. It's a great feeling to know that all that incredibly hateful time I had working so hard and stressing about those fUcking classes paid off. It's the worst when it doesn't. How do I think I did on the test? Oh, I think I did well. I studied for like, 8hrs for it and did all my homework, so I think I got it down. -But then you see a big fat red C- on your paper with red marks all over it like it's a fucking red felt-tipped pen goddamn masterpiece. Yeah, thAt studying paid off! ugh. But I guess the point is, that it really does sometimes...right? I mean, those A's mean SOMETHING...don't they? I hope so someday. 'Cause I sure as hell don't want to be dragging my ass to 7am classes for nothing. So that's school, as always. I did enjoy my astronomy class though, even though it was tough studying. But I really liked learning about how things work up there. It was pretty neat.
The past few weeks this summer has been great. I've really had some time to reflect about things in my life and enjoy some time with Maya and Susan who aren't in town very often. I finally figured out why I don't enjoy cutting hair as much as I thought I would. Even though it's neat to see the look on people's faces with their new look and how refreshed and beautiful I helped make them feel, I'm just standing there the whole time making small talk, which honestly, I really don't like doing. 'Cause you know what? It's fake, because I really don't care all that much. I'm pretending to be interested to make my client more comfortable, and less bored while they sit in my chair. I want to physically be DOING something with my whole body. I am so hooked on that focused, cleansing, refreshing feeling I get when focusing my body to do something in particular like singing or dancing or working out. But I'm glad I went through cosmetology school. Now I know what it's like. I know I enjoy it, but not quite enough.
I'm thinking maybe about becoming some sort of fitness instructor for group classes at the gym. That way I would be able to be doing something physically with my body while helping others get fit all the while to fun music in a sort of choreographed routine. It's an idea. Something to focus on in the fall and guide me in my choice of classes. We'll see. Who knows!!
I got straight A's. Kevin always says, "See? I knew you would do well. All that stress for nothing." But the thing is, it's not for nothing. It's a great feeling to know that all that incredibly hateful time I had working so hard and stressing about those fUcking classes paid off. It's the worst when it doesn't. How do I think I did on the test? Oh, I think I did well. I studied for like, 8hrs for it and did all my homework, so I think I got it down. -But then you see a big fat red C- on your paper with red marks all over it like it's a fucking red felt-tipped pen goddamn masterpiece. Yeah, thAt studying paid off! ugh. But I guess the point is, that it really does sometimes...right? I mean, those A's mean SOMETHING...don't they? I hope so someday. 'Cause I sure as hell don't want to be dragging my ass to 7am classes for nothing. So that's school, as always. I did enjoy my astronomy class though, even though it was tough studying. But I really liked learning about how things work up there. It was pretty neat.
The past few weeks this summer has been great. I've really had some time to reflect about things in my life and enjoy some time with Maya and Susan who aren't in town very often. I finally figured out why I don't enjoy cutting hair as much as I thought I would. Even though it's neat to see the look on people's faces with their new look and how refreshed and beautiful I helped make them feel, I'm just standing there the whole time making small talk, which honestly, I really don't like doing. 'Cause you know what? It's fake, because I really don't care all that much. I'm pretending to be interested to make my client more comfortable, and less bored while they sit in my chair. I want to physically be DOING something with my whole body. I am so hooked on that focused, cleansing, refreshing feeling I get when focusing my body to do something in particular like singing or dancing or working out. But I'm glad I went through cosmetology school. Now I know what it's like. I know I enjoy it, but not quite enough.
I'm thinking maybe about becoming some sort of fitness instructor for group classes at the gym. That way I would be able to be doing something physically with my body while helping others get fit all the while to fun music in a sort of choreographed routine. It's an idea. Something to focus on in the fall and guide me in my choice of classes. We'll see. Who knows!!