today is the day i worked.

[thamyriself]

i worked today,
without getting payed.
i woke up around 1130.
and almost immediatly put in some good music and tore my room apart in an effort to put it back together in a better fashion, (like how some things, some things must be unraveled to truley fit together again...
funny how that idea transcends events from my room to my social life world, perception.)

i rearranged my clothing storages and the overall order of my bed room.
it looks good.
it looks very good...and tomorrow b4 work i want to vacuum and dust. and then friday before work, i would love it, if i was able to clean my bathroom.

i did infact cry last night.
popped in a cd that i knew would be just inspirational enough to let the tears start without begin too strong and forcing them to continue streaming down my face.
it was a pleasant cry, a beautiful cry. and i woke up this morning feling refreshed all because of it.
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i wish i could take back an entire summer.

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growing up suX.