infatuation
"i think that my life lacks AFFECTION. its been so long since ive had and received affection from someone who i truely adore. and now i think i may have found someone who would be worth opening up to, but that fear of rejection, and what not just still makes it harder."
this was stated in another one of my "online shindigs."
since i wrote that things have changed so much.
i find myself writing blogs with this girl in mind.
constantly checking myspace for comments and what not.
i stare at the few pictures of her that i have before i sleep.
and debate all day what to say when i decide whether or not to call her.
now this girl that im talking about today
has shown nothing but the same feelings in return,
but still i cant find it in myself to muster up the strength to beleive that its real.
now its not just the things that shes show me thats unreal.
but how she can do so little to make me feel this way.
i barely hear her voice, and almost never see her,
but the comments i get, the conversations we have.
the possibility of getting to see this beutiful face that i stare at at night;
she has become modivation for me to do the things i do.
this was stated in another one of my "online shindigs."
since i wrote that things have changed so much.
i find myself writing blogs with this girl in mind.
constantly checking myspace for comments and what not.
i stare at the few pictures of her that i have before i sleep.
and debate all day what to say when i decide whether or not to call her.
now this girl that im talking about today
has shown nothing but the same feelings in return,
but still i cant find it in myself to muster up the strength to beleive that its real.
now its not just the things that shes show me thats unreal.
but how she can do so little to make me feel this way.
i barely hear her voice, and almost never see her,
but the comments i get, the conversations we have.
the possibility of getting to see this beutiful face that i stare at at night;
she has become modivation for me to do the things i do.