my life is in shambles

[thamajickwan]

where do i pick up and start over yet again my heart has been crushed by the same person. the bad part is i still love her she tries to say that im so wrong in everything i do. im about to loose my mind. she puts it off like im this bad person which noone i know agrees with. i think she is being influenced by somone else. i dont know what to do anymore. for 6 months i have live my life for her and what she wants, i rarely though about me. now i have nothing to show for it. alot of girls told me i should get away fron it but i thought they where just trying to get with me and didnt listen.
I hate my life now and i was the happiest person in the world, i got along with everyone and everyone liked me for the most part. mabe its time that i start thinking about me now.