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Well it's kinda been a while since I've written something, and I was thinking about it on the drive home tonight. I just got back from the movies with Kristen, but before then I worked a 10 hour shift at Sears. My legs are killing me, in particularly the bad one, but I figure its good practice for standing for such a when I'm a nurse. I've been up since 9:30 in the morning, and it's weird I'm not even tired.
The movie we saw was called "Alot Like Love." I enjoyed it. It was one of those movies where I was thinkin to myself the whole time "man, some of that stuff happened to me." Of course the movies have a happy ending, and part of me was like, well maybe I'll end up like that...or not. But movies like that always kinda get me, it's kinda hard to explain. It's more of a feeling than words could describe.
One of my favorite quotes comes from my all time favorite show Sex and the City. In the closing episode of season 5, Carrie had a monologue, talking about relationships and stuff like that. (She loss the love of her life on more than one occasion)And what she said has stuck with me for years. "...Some of us are settling down, others are just settling, and some of us refuse to settle for anything less than butterflies..." Right then and there I realized that I don't wanna settle for anything else, with any guy, but butterflies.
But the problem is when you meet somebody like that, and you lose them, you're kinda screwed basically. Over the years I've realized once you've loved someone, how can you go back to just the regular, casual, bullshit. If you have it all, whats the point of going back? And in a way, I guess thats how I'm in my pathetic little rut.
However, part of me is always optimistic. And in my heart, as far as my situation, I know it's not over. That might sound crazy, but I've felt this way since day one, which was over 2 years ago. So yes I believe in a thing called love, cause I've lived it, lost it, and hopefully I hope to gain it (or him) back. To me the one of the most beautiful things in the world is to find the person you wanna spend your life with, can tell anything to, grow old with, have kids with, and just admire your spirit. But I will admit, it's a terrible feeling to have knowing that 1. I could end up with someone just b/c I have settled, or 2. just be alone and miserable.
But it's funny how life works, and fate appears to be kicking in, which makes for an interesting or ideal, yet potentially hurtful and gut-wrenching, twist.
Nevertheless, with this whole love idea and with my particular situation, the only thing I could really say is "BABY YOU'RE THE ONLY REASON I'M TRYIN" cause in the end, you, and us is all worth it. So that's all I need to get me through the tough times, sleepless nights, and anxiety. You inspire me and make me wanna be better, as well as motivate me through it all - you just simply bring out the best in me.
Yes well that was my deep, insightful, thought for the night. I guess I have shed some light on a part of my life that ppl never knew I've experienced. There's alot ppl don't know though, and I like to keep it fresh, plus theres no shame in my game. Besides, you learn something new about someone or something everyday. So everyone take care, be safe, and see ya when I see ya.
The movie we saw was called "Alot Like Love." I enjoyed it. It was one of those movies where I was thinkin to myself the whole time "man, some of that stuff happened to me." Of course the movies have a happy ending, and part of me was like, well maybe I'll end up like that...or not. But movies like that always kinda get me, it's kinda hard to explain. It's more of a feeling than words could describe.
One of my favorite quotes comes from my all time favorite show Sex and the City. In the closing episode of season 5, Carrie had a monologue, talking about relationships and stuff like that. (She loss the love of her life on more than one occasion)And what she said has stuck with me for years. "...Some of us are settling down, others are just settling, and some of us refuse to settle for anything less than butterflies..." Right then and there I realized that I don't wanna settle for anything else, with any guy, but butterflies.
But the problem is when you meet somebody like that, and you lose them, you're kinda screwed basically. Over the years I've realized once you've loved someone, how can you go back to just the regular, casual, bullshit. If you have it all, whats the point of going back? And in a way, I guess thats how I'm in my pathetic little rut.
However, part of me is always optimistic. And in my heart, as far as my situation, I know it's not over. That might sound crazy, but I've felt this way since day one, which was over 2 years ago. So yes I believe in a thing called love, cause I've lived it, lost it, and hopefully I hope to gain it (or him) back. To me the one of the most beautiful things in the world is to find the person you wanna spend your life with, can tell anything to, grow old with, have kids with, and just admire your spirit. But I will admit, it's a terrible feeling to have knowing that 1. I could end up with someone just b/c I have settled, or 2. just be alone and miserable.
But it's funny how life works, and fate appears to be kicking in, which makes for an interesting or ideal, yet potentially hurtful and gut-wrenching, twist.
Nevertheless, with this whole love idea and with my particular situation, the only thing I could really say is "BABY YOU'RE THE ONLY REASON I'M TRYIN" cause in the end, you, and us is all worth it. So that's all I need to get me through the tough times, sleepless nights, and anxiety. You inspire me and make me wanna be better, as well as motivate me through it all - you just simply bring out the best in me.
Yes well that was my deep, insightful, thought for the night. I guess I have shed some light on a part of my life that ppl never knew I've experienced. There's alot ppl don't know though, and I like to keep it fresh, plus theres no shame in my game. Besides, you learn something new about someone or something everyday. So everyone take care, be safe, and see ya when I see ya.