I realize now..

[thaliasgonecraz]

Time has flown into frictions of the mind and apathy.
I wanted to see the water clears but while you all waited for my patience
I ran

Ran from the discontinued trust and ruse of false relationships
don't get me wrong
i'm not claiming my innocence
just flashing highlights on your lack
there of

its less than my heart sitting bleeding
and its more than just fingerstrokes
of someone
who has been betrayed
by not only herself
but you and him and her and thats about it

i know i was dangerous and you let me fall in bed with a knife beneath my head
who was it said

i'm becoming part of the past
the part that won't last

critisize
its stylelized

i spelled that on purpose that way
you see theres not much purpose these days

i didn't think bringing together the blue of your eyes
and the green of your smirk
and the tandem that laid between my hands
would evolve into more than just a meeting of our
three truths

i'm happy for you both
not bitter as perhaps
this could be misconstrued
i'm not sure if you'll read it
and say her days were always numbered
but they were
would it break your heart to know
i've been disrobed
and for once
in all my nakedness i'm not ashamed
not quite as thick as everyone wanted to claim.

hey its not that i'm calling the quits
the game ended so long ago
and we kept running
but i think it was just the rush of feeling
the grass beneath our knees
and the quick breath air
that snapped the trees under
the power of our electric
fingerslips
it was just a wink
a wiggle
flash of pink
blur of dark
and we were in charge of more than just
lusting parts

i've accepted
and deflected
and just now
ha
not just now
but just now
i care enough
to let you know
i don't care
if you don't care
but i care
and always will
but i'm not willing
to let my care
foil my plans

but i'm glad you've found your water
because your thirsts were great
and theres nothing worse
than hungering
for mountains
of