*SOB*
Someone put two months onto my account. Why did you spend money on me? And why aren't you telling me who you are? *SOB* Thank you.
I'm still so lonely. it feels as if I'm in a room full of people, screaming at the top of my lungs and no one can even hear me.
I'm famous for one liners here and there, now I will put you to sleep with a rather long update.
Its not something to be denied, the fact that loneliness plagues me daily and creeps down my spine. Looking around at all of the happy couples, seeing the newlyweds, everything, no offense to you people on a personal level, but it makes me sick beyond belief. You're all so lucky. You're lucky to have someone to call your own. I am seething with jealousy. All of these weddings going on around me, people being happy in relationships, and here I am sitting alone, still waiting for someone to come take me away. To come rescue me from my loathsome ego. My previous relationship was a bust, then again aren't they all? And now here I sit looking at the pages in this photo book and I am looking back on the memories of the past. Sweet watercolored memories. That is all they are now. I'm tired of waking up in the morning and reaching out....and just keep on reaching. Reaching toward nothing. Instead of a warm body in my bed that greets me with a loving face and hands to carress me ever so gently, I am met with the cold harsh smack of reality and the never ending cloud of loneliness. At times I would give almost anything to have someone walk right up to me and tell me that they love me. Those three words are something I long to hear whispered in my ears. I yearn to have the feeling of a lovesick puppydog. Am I pathetic? No, just lonely. I am trapped within a storm of thunder, lightning, and the rain has soaked me to the core. I run to find shelter within someone but everywhere I turn to locked is a locked door or someone shuts a door in my face. I feel so damn lonely. But its nothing new. I am not a stranger to a broken heart and I fear that I never will be.
There is your update. I hope you're happy..
I'm still so lonely. it feels as if I'm in a room full of people, screaming at the top of my lungs and no one can even hear me.
I'm famous for one liners here and there, now I will put you to sleep with a rather long update.
Its not something to be denied, the fact that loneliness plagues me daily and creeps down my spine. Looking around at all of the happy couples, seeing the newlyweds, everything, no offense to you people on a personal level, but it makes me sick beyond belief. You're all so lucky. You're lucky to have someone to call your own. I am seething with jealousy. All of these weddings going on around me, people being happy in relationships, and here I am sitting alone, still waiting for someone to come take me away. To come rescue me from my loathsome ego. My previous relationship was a bust, then again aren't they all? And now here I sit looking at the pages in this photo book and I am looking back on the memories of the past. Sweet watercolored memories. That is all they are now. I'm tired of waking up in the morning and reaching out....and just keep on reaching. Reaching toward nothing. Instead of a warm body in my bed that greets me with a loving face and hands to carress me ever so gently, I am met with the cold harsh smack of reality and the never ending cloud of loneliness. At times I would give almost anything to have someone walk right up to me and tell me that they love me. Those three words are something I long to hear whispered in my ears. I yearn to have the feeling of a lovesick puppydog. Am I pathetic? No, just lonely. I am trapped within a storm of thunder, lightning, and the rain has soaked me to the core. I run to find shelter within someone but everywhere I turn to locked is a locked door or someone shuts a door in my face. I feel so damn lonely. But its nothing new. I am not a stranger to a broken heart and I fear that I never will be.
There is your update. I hope you're happy..