FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEDOM!
MY EXAMS ARE ALL OVER.
I HAVE FINISHED SCHOOL.
THE. END.
So, yeah, I'm back from hiatus obviously. :D Although considering that I was more active on hiatus than when I wasn't, maybe I should just keep on being on hiatus?! XD
Nah but seriously, from now on, I'll really try to be a better friend on here. >.<; After all, I'm not exactly busy any more!! I'll also get back into the writing, although I'm really not sure what to write in terms of fanfiction- does anyone actually ship Yamajima like they used to anymore?? xS I'll write some anyway if I get any interest. :D Cause I still have that epic multi-chap that I wouldn't mind doing cause it's quite AU anyway... oh and that broccoli fic from ages ago that's practically finished. /ranting!
I feel so free, and so light. I forgot that you can feel like this! This year has been quite a shocker generally and I'm realising now how much year 12 affected me, and how down I actually got. But from now on, I can already feel myself going back to how I was- or perhaps I'll change for the better? I'm hoping so.
Because in my end-of-drama party tonight, I had the most wonderful time. Really, really wonderful. I felt part of the group, I made people laugh, I was loud and without my usual shyness, and I was told by my fellow students how much they liked me and thought I was hilarious. Stupid, unconfident me gets these thoughts in my head that I'm the one people don't realise is there, that they won't even notice me because I blend into my surroundings too much. And if I tried to talk to them, they wouldn't like me.
But you know what? A little confidence. That's all it takes. The confidence to let people know who you are, and the overwhelming chances are they'll like you for that. I realised that today. I had the best fun I've had in a long time, and it was because I lived in that moment with no hesitations and no restrictions. I hope I don't let that feeling go, and I hope I don't retreat back into what I'm used to. Because I want to be like that all the time, and when I go to uni, I want to live as freely as I feel now. I want to feel worthy, and I want to feel like I can be liked. I feel as if I've had a wake-up call with all this happiness like nothing else could do, and I DON'T WANNA PRESS THE SNOOZE BUTTON! Ohh CLICHE :'D♥ /bombed out of sight/
But seriously. I'm sick of this bipolar year and getting sad and feeling like I'm not as good as everyone else, so you know what? I'm not going to be like that anymore. The end. :D
I love you for reading this far. Heck, I probably love you anyway. ♥
I am free, I am happy. Life is good. And how are you? ^0^/
^____________________________________________^!
I HAVE FINISHED SCHOOL.
THE. END.
So, yeah, I'm back from hiatus obviously. :D Although considering that I was more active on hiatus than when I wasn't, maybe I should just keep on being on hiatus?! XD
Nah but seriously, from now on, I'll really try to be a better friend on here. >.<; After all, I'm not exactly busy any more!! I'll also get back into the writing, although I'm really not sure what to write in terms of fanfiction- does anyone actually ship Yamajima like they used to anymore?? xS I'll write some anyway if I get any interest. :D Cause I still have that epic multi-chap that I wouldn't mind doing cause it's quite AU anyway... oh and that broccoli fic from ages ago that's practically finished. /ranting!
I feel so free, and so light. I forgot that you can feel like this! This year has been quite a shocker generally and I'm realising now how much year 12 affected me, and how down I actually got. But from now on, I can already feel myself going back to how I was- or perhaps I'll change for the better? I'm hoping so.
Because in my end-of-drama party tonight, I had the most wonderful time. Really, really wonderful. I felt part of the group, I made people laugh, I was loud and without my usual shyness, and I was told by my fellow students how much they liked me and thought I was hilarious. Stupid, unconfident me gets these thoughts in my head that I'm the one people don't realise is there, that they won't even notice me because I blend into my surroundings too much. And if I tried to talk to them, they wouldn't like me.
But you know what? A little confidence. That's all it takes. The confidence to let people know who you are, and the overwhelming chances are they'll like you for that. I realised that today. I had the best fun I've had in a long time, and it was because I lived in that moment with no hesitations and no restrictions. I hope I don't let that feeling go, and I hope I don't retreat back into what I'm used to. Because I want to be like that all the time, and when I go to uni, I want to live as freely as I feel now. I want to feel worthy, and I want to feel like I can be liked. I feel as if I've had a wake-up call with all this happiness like nothing else could do, and I DON'T WANNA PRESS THE SNOOZE BUTTON! Ohh CLICHE :'D♥ /bombed out of sight/
But seriously. I'm sick of this bipolar year and getting sad and feeling like I'm not as good as everyone else, so you know what? I'm not going to be like that anymore. The end. :D
I love you for reading this far. Heck, I probably love you anyway. ♥
I am free, I am happy. Life is good. And how are you? ^0^/
^____________________________________________^!