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"Could it be any harder to say goodbye and without you,
Could it be any harder to watch you go, to face what's true
If I only had one more day
I lie down and blind myself with laughter
A quick fix of hope is what I'm needing
And how I wish that I could turn back the hours
But I know I just don't have the power"
~ The Calling
I didn't think it would be so hard to say goodbye to the seniors. I know it's five days too early, and I know that I'm still going to see them after they leave...but I didn't know it would have this big of an effect on me. Today was the last Live at :45 for the year, the senior edition, and I couldn't help but cry after watching it. I know it's going to be hard to let go of people who have made such a big impact on my life.
Knowing that I will be without the seniors next year, that I will be a senior myself, makes me a little sad. It may be fun and I may enjoy myself a lot, and things may not change much from day to day....but the people that I've come to consider as my closest friends in high school won't be there anymore, and that scares me a little. From my first day in high school to now, I can say that the class of 2005 has made the biggest impact on me. Rhonda was the first person I met at North Farmington, and she's been one of my closest friends all three years at North. James has always been someone who understood me, and it's going to be hard not to have anyone to relate to culturally next year. Steve, Tara, Erin, and Tatiana all made me feel so comfortable in math last year, especially after Paula left second semester. And I seriously wouldn't have done as well this year if I didn't have an amazing Calc class either, which includes one of the cutest, smartest, nicest people I've ever met, Eri! I wouldn't have even liked Model UN had it not been for Puneet. Stephanie really encouraged me to take risks, especially in running for office on Student Senate. All my St. Fabian leadership people, Jamie, Stephanie L, Katie R, Katie S, Liz, Emily, Brad, Erik, all included me even though I'm not even Catholic. And there are so many more, Ashley, Jason, Braden, Sarah, Oren, Lisa K, Lisa P, Parth, Curtis, Roberto, Adam, Andy, Russ, everyone! You guys are the best!
So this entry is for all of my senior friends.....for making me laugh, for caring when I cried, for making fun of me when I said something stupid, for always asking me what's new, for inviting me to do stuff, for saying hi to me in the halls, for supporting me unconditionally, for being there when I needed help, for accepting me, for making me feel like I'm actually worth something, for being my friends when I felt like I didn't have any, and especially for treating me like an equal. I'll miss you, I don't know what I'm going to do without you next year, even for the next 2 weeks. You're all going to be amazing, like you always were. I'll never forget any of you. Thank you so much for everything.
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