Pt.3 ProbablY ThE LasT CoNNfessioN

Aug 30, 2004 13:11

For Ra'kels eyes OnlY and dont get it twisted ma!!!
this is probably goin to answer alot of your qustions
aight..
Well the other day me and Ra'kel was hav'n some problems and i think i really hurt'd you by gett'n jelous over stupid shit. Sometimes in tha past you really hurt'd me yo. Honestly i really thought you was the reason for all my problems this summer . I guess to wrongs dont make a right. I guess wit all the time we was spendin together i kinda thought you was my girl.
Anyways i know you had a really fucked up year . I felt so bad for you i swear bcuz you sat next to me in math class and i remember askin you wus wrong. And you looked at me with those preety blue eyes of yours and said your friend had killed her self.
and this was like my first time hearing some info like this..
i was in shock for like weak cuz every one i chilled wit was friends with her
anyways
Well as i was talkin to you on my porche i could really see your pain even if you didnt wanna cry in front of me i could tell how bad you miss her..
And here i am complaning cuz you wouldnt go out with me
how selfish of me yo.
Ra'kel im really sorry for even gettin mad at you about the josh and zeke thing
but fa'real deep down inside "i jus wanna see you happy" if the kiss made you happy then do it a hundred more times. but why didnt you tell me about it cuz i thought you was try'n to hide it or sumthin.
but i cant even imagine wut it felt like when you herd about it.
cuz i know i would kill myself if sumthin had happend to you.
i dont giva fuck wut anybody says i seen you more this summer then any of your friends
and we really hav good times together there hasnt been a day this summer that i havent thought about "you and Kaila" God Bless her...
then i wrote a song about kill'n you wut tha fuck i was thinkin yo.
please forgive thakid but really i thought you didnt giva fuck if you hurt'd me or not thats why i didnt wanna talk to you about any of this.
i never had a friend like you yo.
on some real shit
hol up im tryin to type without cryin.
i dont want you to be thinkin twice about me so heres the shit that made me sad at work and as i was lookin at you face to face speechless....
Even if you forget about me.. damn ill never foget about you
or tha feelings arnt tha same cuz at some points i wonder if you even care . Cuz really like that one friday i wanted to kill myself. and the shit heather and Sarah tells me makes me think twice about you...
but i guess it wasnt ment to be..
me and you or me killin myself over all that bullshit
wow..another damn confession!!!!! anything els do i wanna tell you about cuz now i dont hav a problem wit tellin you stuff
i really like these pajama pants im wearing cuz they remind me of you..lol i might keep them
and can you tell me how you feel about me..ill keep it between us
so my heart tells me i love you and i didnt think twice to tell you that infront of every noisy mothafucka that wasnt suspose to read this that. Can You Answer my ?'s
and R.I.P Kaila<3 i really didnt know you..
Dee*Dee
To the "one" and OnLy Ra'KeL
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