Yeah, so I'm taking a leaf out of Mel's book...
yeesh, I never post on LJ anymore, either. I keep intending to. Sort of the way I keep intending to post to my (terrible) French blog thing at lang-8, only worse.
This year is so weird... I really like all my classes, and that's a good start. There are kids in so many of them, though, who I haven't had class with in years. It's bizarre, cuz I'm sort of like, "oh, we used to be friendly," but also, "wow, I haven't seen you in ages," and, "you're a really cool kid. It's too bad we're not actually going to be friends."
And I don't have a group anymore. Instead of being in the middle of one of those crazy-looking friendship/family trees that connects in 80 000 places, I feel like I'm at the center of an asterisk. * only I think I have more than five friends. *shrug* However, as I observed to my sister this morning (not that she cared at all), I am SOOOO glad I'm eating in the cafeteria/senior lounge this year. Besides the fact that I always have homework to do at lunch, I definitely overdosed on the loading dock last year. Grr, I don't know. I feel like last year messed up some stuff. I used to like the loading dock. And Mr. White's room. Eh, Mr. White's room isn't so bad, actually. It's like a party in there 4/5* :D
I wish somebody had told me that August/September was National Be Bitchy to People season. It's getting old. Just because you are not mature enough to end a relationship well does not mean I want to hear about how much you hate the other person/people. End.of.story.
Plus I'm really not that into church anymore. I'm hoping the small group thing will be a good deal. I was pretty skeptical at first, but I'm willing to give it a shot. I also kind of want to see if I would be better off at a different church (I even have a couple in mind), but I have NO idea how to suggest that to my parents. I think maybe I just have to wait it out and sort out my life at college next year, but I don't know. Ugh. I've been skipping Sunday School to sit in the library and read. They are religion-related books, so it's not a big deal, anyone who cares. And I've been trying to reflect on stuff in my journal, but it doesn't always work... I just really don't get anything out of church. Blahhhhhhhhh. I definitely need to belong to a really tiny church when I get older. Or maybe not tiny, but not huge. Cuz huge churches just get obsessed with their hugeness and it all falls apart. And I'm never working for the church either, or I might kill someone.
*sigh* I'm so excited for college. I hope my parents don't see it as, "I hate living here and can't wait to get out." I mean...that's not really it, I'm just getting frustrated with my lack of opportunity and freedom to study what i want and schedule my life how i want. And not deal with overly hormonal siblings (two more reasons I might kill someone).
Ok, now I think I do have to go to bed. Yay for night football game this week! Who knows when we'll get back tomorrow night.
-fin-
This year is so weird... I really like all my classes, and that's a good start. There are kids in so many of them, though, who I haven't had class with in years. It's bizarre, cuz I'm sort of like, "oh, we used to be friendly," but also, "wow, I haven't seen you in ages," and, "you're a really cool kid. It's too bad we're not actually going to be friends."
And I don't have a group anymore. Instead of being in the middle of one of those crazy-looking friendship/family trees that connects in 80 000 places, I feel like I'm at the center of an asterisk. * only I think I have more than five friends. *shrug* However, as I observed to my sister this morning (not that she cared at all), I am SOOOO glad I'm eating in the cafeteria/senior lounge this year. Besides the fact that I always have homework to do at lunch, I definitely overdosed on the loading dock last year. Grr, I don't know. I feel like last year messed up some stuff. I used to like the loading dock. And Mr. White's room. Eh, Mr. White's room isn't so bad, actually. It's like a party in there 4/5* :D
I wish somebody had told me that August/September was National Be Bitchy to People season. It's getting old. Just because you are not mature enough to end a relationship well does not mean I want to hear about how much you hate the other person/people. End.of.story.
Plus I'm really not that into church anymore. I'm hoping the small group thing will be a good deal. I was pretty skeptical at first, but I'm willing to give it a shot. I also kind of want to see if I would be better off at a different church (I even have a couple in mind), but I have NO idea how to suggest that to my parents. I think maybe I just have to wait it out and sort out my life at college next year, but I don't know. Ugh. I've been skipping Sunday School to sit in the library and read. They are religion-related books, so it's not a big deal, anyone who cares. And I've been trying to reflect on stuff in my journal, but it doesn't always work... I just really don't get anything out of church. Blahhhhhhhhh. I definitely need to belong to a really tiny church when I get older. Or maybe not tiny, but not huge. Cuz huge churches just get obsessed with their hugeness and it all falls apart. And I'm never working for the church either, or I might kill someone.
*sigh* I'm so excited for college. I hope my parents don't see it as, "I hate living here and can't wait to get out." I mean...that's not really it, I'm just getting frustrated with my lack of opportunity and freedom to study what i want and schedule my life how i want. And not deal with overly hormonal siblings (two more reasons I might kill someone).
Ok, now I think I do have to go to bed. Yay for night football game this week! Who knows when we'll get back tomorrow night.
-fin-