If my icon is true...

[thaichicken]

then why am I the friend causing the hurt? And why is that hurt hurting me and making me doubt myself and my other friendships? And why won't you tell me what the hurt is so I can help? "No, no, it's not your fault..." I shouldn't've told you the stupid story. You were curious about it at first, and then you laughed at the first joke, and then I said something that sent you running away and you wouldn't tell me what it was and I don't know. I don't want another friendship screwed up this way. At least I had the guts to keep going no, that's a lie. I didn't. And that's why the other one's not my friend anymore either. I don't want to drive my friends away from me! I don't hate you all and want you to die! I want you to be happy and I don't want to make you cry every time I see you. Or come close. I've been there, I don't want to go back, and I don't want to do it to you. WHY??

If you've already got a stressful weekend, I forbid you to worry about me and this mess. If you're that concerned, ask me about it *after* the stressful weekend and we'll talk about it then. OK?