im sick... for a change

[thagonyscene]

i think i had food poisoning
now my whole body is sore
and i feel better... but i still can't risk eating
i ended up calling ian, and then puking while he was on the phone
hahaha, so romantic
it's okay i muted.
i feel like i haven't seen anyone in a long time
it's probably cause im in the middle of a personal battle
my life is never easy
it's never living from one good thing to the next
it's always something horrible happens
and then something else horrible happens right after i get over the other thing
i mean, i guess i'm okay with that
it makes you stronger, right?
but i keep asking myself if it's worth it

i know i can make it through anything
especially with ian at my side
i just hope that for once god likes me
and will make this whole process easier.

i'm sorry guys for being distant.
i really am
i love you all.