Jan 11, 2006 14:55
So did I cross the line?
Yes, I know what I did was foul. I didn’t have to go into her email, get her contacts and send an e-mail out to her family, friends, school and business contacts. I didn’t have to include a picture of her and Yaz and explain my side of the story. I didn’t have to delete every single e-mail I ever sent her…but I did.
Some may say what I did was hurtful, uncalled for, malicious or juvenile. I’ve received a couple e-mails from Xiomara’s friends and family calling me out and even threatening me. I replied to each of the hateful e-mails with the same response, “Thanks for your feedback.”
Why did I do it?
Simple, I was angry. I just found out that someone I trusted cheated on me. I was ready to go to London and really address the situation but I did the non-violent thing. I sat down on my computer, wrote out my story and shared it with almost everyone. Yes, it was an issue between Xiomara and me, but I was so filled with rage that I wanted to hurt her. I wanted to give her a taste of what it felt like to have your trust violated. So I did it. Did I feel better after I sent it? Yes…a little bit but it’s still wasn’t close to the amount of pain that she caused me. Now ask yourself, what would you do?
Xiomara and I are not getting back together, I can’t trust her. We talked about cheating in the past, she said she would never cheat on me. I told her how I would react if she did. She knew what she was doing, alcohol gave her an excuse. She put herself in that situation, and I warned her about it. She replied to the text messages that he sent, she replied to the MSN messages, she replied to the e-mails that he sent, she called him back when he called and she kissed him back when he kissed her.
I may have lost the respect from a few friends who are very special to me for doing what I did, I’m sorry for that. But I didn’t deserve to have a relationship end the way that it did. She cheated on me, that’s the real issue.
Did I go too far?