here comes sam riding the slow train...
So i just noticed today, while watching my copious amounts of vacation tv that Collins (As is from RENT) is on law and order. My heart stopped, i love this man.
Went home for the weekend, it was really nice. Went out with Steph friday night to meet her boyfriend and his friends, then ment a bunch of our guy friends from highschool it was a good night. Then Saturday was beautiful, I went and got my tregis piercings fixed (don't get me started) took a nice walk with my mom and hannah, then hannah made fresh sauce and we ate and watched movies all night, it was great. Sunday I got up and visited my friend Meg that I hadn't seen in...forever. It was great, i am hoping to go out to Oswego to see her big art show at the end of the year. Went back home and got Rent for the fam and I to watch before I headed back out to MA. As usual, I cried like a fricken retard wen Angel died, but so did my mom. It was so weird, she started sobbing, I didn't know what to do. Things at home are majorily stressed right now, I really just need my mom to cetch a break. She's still not back to work, comp has stopped paying her medical bills, our house is back in default, and she's under hot water will all her other bills. I wish there was some way that I could help, but I am having enough trouble getting all my shit in order. I wish there was a magical little service that I could call and just be like "could you please go and clean my mothers house, and help her with repairs because she's physically unable to do it and my 16 year old sister is beyond lazy". O and the icing on the cake to what would have been a perfect weekend was finding out that hannah has failed the 10th grade. I was so dissapointed and angery at her I could barely hold a conversation whith her. I dunno, I guess graduation approching has become bittersweet. I've struggled for the past year and half to graduate on time, an adventure that I started when the one person it mattered to the most was still here, not that it doesn't matter to me, obviously it does...but I just wish he could have been here to see it. le sigh. And as it stands right now, i am not even sure my mom and hannah can come out because my mom doesn't have any money for a hotel room. I am sure something will work out it always does.
I am house sitting in Pittsfield, which is kinda nice, but it's been alot of driving and I am lonely most of the time. I have the cat here which is the main reason why I am house sitting, but ya know, going 2 days with out human contact for me is tourture. Tomarrow I meet with the nutritonist, it should be interesting. I miss my morning workouts and Carmen, I want to loose 20lbs by May 9th (which is the last day of finals) I think with some hard self restraint and work I'll be able to do it. Shit I've lost 40bs in 3 months, I can do this. Then again I've been eating non stop for 4 days as well, soooo, we'll see. I want to be able to get a cute graduation dress and live it up, and not worry about the way i look. Keep your fingers crossed for me.
Well, i guess thats pretty much it for now. Looking forward to Mike's St. Patty days party friday, other than that not a whole lot going on.
Went home for the weekend, it was really nice. Went out with Steph friday night to meet her boyfriend and his friends, then ment a bunch of our guy friends from highschool it was a good night. Then Saturday was beautiful, I went and got my tregis piercings fixed (don't get me started) took a nice walk with my mom and hannah, then hannah made fresh sauce and we ate and watched movies all night, it was great. Sunday I got up and visited my friend Meg that I hadn't seen in...forever. It was great, i am hoping to go out to Oswego to see her big art show at the end of the year. Went back home and got Rent for the fam and I to watch before I headed back out to MA. As usual, I cried like a fricken retard wen Angel died, but so did my mom. It was so weird, she started sobbing, I didn't know what to do. Things at home are majorily stressed right now, I really just need my mom to cetch a break. She's still not back to work, comp has stopped paying her medical bills, our house is back in default, and she's under hot water will all her other bills. I wish there was some way that I could help, but I am having enough trouble getting all my shit in order. I wish there was a magical little service that I could call and just be like "could you please go and clean my mothers house, and help her with repairs because she's physically unable to do it and my 16 year old sister is beyond lazy". O and the icing on the cake to what would have been a perfect weekend was finding out that hannah has failed the 10th grade. I was so dissapointed and angery at her I could barely hold a conversation whith her. I dunno, I guess graduation approching has become bittersweet. I've struggled for the past year and half to graduate on time, an adventure that I started when the one person it mattered to the most was still here, not that it doesn't matter to me, obviously it does...but I just wish he could have been here to see it. le sigh. And as it stands right now, i am not even sure my mom and hannah can come out because my mom doesn't have any money for a hotel room. I am sure something will work out it always does.
I am house sitting in Pittsfield, which is kinda nice, but it's been alot of driving and I am lonely most of the time. I have the cat here which is the main reason why I am house sitting, but ya know, going 2 days with out human contact for me is tourture. Tomarrow I meet with the nutritonist, it should be interesting. I miss my morning workouts and Carmen, I want to loose 20lbs by May 9th (which is the last day of finals) I think with some hard self restraint and work I'll be able to do it. Shit I've lost 40bs in 3 months, I can do this. Then again I've been eating non stop for 4 days as well, soooo, we'll see. I want to be able to get a cute graduation dress and live it up, and not worry about the way i look. Keep your fingers crossed for me.
Well, i guess thats pretty much it for now. Looking forward to Mike's St. Patty days party friday, other than that not a whole lot going on.