Starting T . . Sort Of
So, on the advice of my therapist, I talked to my doctor about getting on a low dose of testosterone in order to restore some sexual functioning until I get a chance to see the endocrinologist. He prescribed me our best guess at the dosage typical for female sexual dysfunction (it's an off-label use), based on a note in my file from my gynocologist: 1 mL daily of compounded 2% testosterone cream. I've been on it for about 6 days.
So far it does seem to be helping with both desire and orgasm, though my libido still isn't up where I'd like it to be. It's certainly better than being a eunich. I'm also sleeping a LOT - I can stay awake just fine when I need to, but 5 minutes without something to occupy me and I'm out. I'm also breaking out in spots like a teenager. I'm not expecting any other changes from such a low dose, though I can't help hoping. Other than the fatigue, though, (which I'm hoping will pass as my body adjusts) I'm liking the way it's making me feel. Which isn't like much, actually. Just . . . normal. My body dysphoria seems less intense and I feel more clear-headed and mellow.
I've started to consider if I could just stay here, rather than having to transition, and be, if not happy, than content. At least for now. I have a supportive group of friends who see me for who I really am no matter what my body looks like, I'm not feeling completely dissociative when I look in the mirror... I still really want to transition and would have no qualms about moving forward with it if it were just me affected, but I wonder if this is the happy medium mfrazercani's been hoping for. Or at least a breathing space for him so that we can proceed at a pace he's more comfortable with.
So far it does seem to be helping with both desire and orgasm, though my libido still isn't up where I'd like it to be. It's certainly better than being a eunich. I'm also sleeping a LOT - I can stay awake just fine when I need to, but 5 minutes without something to occupy me and I'm out. I'm also breaking out in spots like a teenager. I'm not expecting any other changes from such a low dose, though I can't help hoping. Other than the fatigue, though, (which I'm hoping will pass as my body adjusts) I'm liking the way it's making me feel. Which isn't like much, actually. Just . . . normal. My body dysphoria seems less intense and I feel more clear-headed and mellow.
I've started to consider if I could just stay here, rather than having to transition, and be, if not happy, than content. At least for now. I have a supportive group of friends who see me for who I really am no matter what my body looks like, I'm not feeling completely dissociative when I look in the mirror... I still really want to transition and would have no qualms about moving forward with it if it were just me affected, but I wonder if this is the happy medium mfrazercani's been hoping for. Or at least a breathing space for him so that we can proceed at a pace he's more comfortable with.