where are we in this world?
i keep thinking to myself, about ewhy is there so much pain, from died outrelationships to broken marriages, ect. why does it have to hurt so much, why doesnt it just go away and leave ya alone for about 12 years. Am i such an emaotional wreck most my life dealing with the pains of life....Loss of family, loss of friends, now loss of love in my life, amd i bound to be alone in this world? if so then so be it..it will prolly mzke me the worst person in the world, hatefful and spiteful, biiter to the very end? No..i am not that way tho some think iam an @$$hole and not wrth the spit on lol. Lord i have tried o be the happier person....i try to make others happy, when iwas with Laura, she made me laugh i cried with her inside....i was truely happy but then everything just went poof, she even toldme..."when you say you love me i felt nothing" which really cut me to the core..tho when iasked her that our love making and such meant nothing? she said yes...i guess iwas just a love puppet to her something to toss away when shes done yet when i did it with her..meant more than that..i actually lovewd her..and yet she felt nada for me. i guess iam just like isaid an old toy to be tossed to the wolves