Hm
I have been living on my own for most of the month of March and it's not so bad. The first week hit me pretty hard; I felt pretty alone and wasn't too sure what to with myself. Now I spend most of my time by myself and I'm alright with it. Actually, I'm enjoying it. The feeling of suffocation has finally lifted and Daniel and I can enjoy our time together instead of being stuck with each other all the time. It's nice. I spend a lot of time watching anime, playing games, or just hanging out with my cat. And it works for me. I know I'm not really that alone, but sometimes sitting in your empty apartment when you're used to a bazillion people on your couch talking games is hard. It'll be even harder when Daniel leaves for his internship, but we'll have fun getting there and meeting in between. That will be a huge experience for him and it will turn out great.
Some of this alone time has been allotted to thinking about my current relationships with friends (or lack thereof) and just what I'd like those situations to be. Sitting outside of the social box is a big eye-opener. There are a lot of shitty and fake people out there, and I hope that they just kind of fade out of my life. Most of them already are, since I don't really talk to them. At all. Pretty much what I've encountered is that I still hate girls mostly. In general, they're okay for a short time. Then they're insane. This is why I get along with dudes. And Jessie. But even her and I get into lame catfights. I think it's unavoidable for females sometimes. I don't really like most of the people at work, just as a defense mechanism against what they think of me. I'm a strange girl, and I'm down with that but normal middle aged nurses aren't apparently. I'm probably just not social enough. But I don't feel the need to force my personality on people. Eh, they'll get me eventually. Or, y'know, not.
I'm playing Crisis Core on the PSP religiously. I pretty much haven't stopped since it came out. I played DDR in El Paso with the guys (and, again, Jessie) and that was good times. I need to play some more but it's not a high priority at the moment. I still play Halo online when I'm in the mood. Dudes from work want to add me on Xbox Live. Silly. I beat Professor Layton but not all the stupid gay hard puzzles yet. No, not hardgay puzzles. And Brawl is hard to finish unlocking, I don't have the dedication for it. I got the characters and the stages. Trophies/stickers can bite me.
Some of this alone time has been allotted to thinking about my current relationships with friends (or lack thereof) and just what I'd like those situations to be. Sitting outside of the social box is a big eye-opener. There are a lot of shitty and fake people out there, and I hope that they just kind of fade out of my life. Most of them already are, since I don't really talk to them. At all. Pretty much what I've encountered is that I still hate girls mostly. In general, they're okay for a short time. Then they're insane. This is why I get along with dudes. And Jessie. But even her and I get into lame catfights. I think it's unavoidable for females sometimes. I don't really like most of the people at work, just as a defense mechanism against what they think of me. I'm a strange girl, and I'm down with that but normal middle aged nurses aren't apparently. I'm probably just not social enough. But I don't feel the need to force my personality on people. Eh, they'll get me eventually. Or, y'know, not.
I'm playing Crisis Core on the PSP religiously. I pretty much haven't stopped since it came out. I played DDR in El Paso with the guys (and, again, Jessie) and that was good times. I need to play some more but it's not a high priority at the moment. I still play Halo online when I'm in the mood. Dudes from work want to add me on Xbox Live. Silly. I beat Professor Layton but not all the stupid gay hard puzzles yet. No, not hardgay puzzles. And Brawl is hard to finish unlocking, I don't have the dedication for it. I got the characters and the stages. Trophies/stickers can bite me.