tangerine, tangerine, living reflection from a dream
so i started to post the other day and got distreaacted, sorry theres no excuse for that.
well lets see, i'm oakland county field coordinator and thats great. its the first job i've ever had in my life where i've had a really good first day. i'm doing what im interested in and thats awesome, plus i have a big job with people who appreciate my work. i've been coordinating volunteers and events and parades etc., but its awesome.
in addition to that i am spending time at the homeless shelter because i want to study urban poverty etc and i'm in really close contact with an amazing homeless organization that also appreciates my work. :)
i got another aquarium which has catfish and glowfish right now, i'm prepping the tank for when i get glasscats. which are my top priority. :)
at the homeless shelter today, they talked about being healed and what it feels like to be saved by the lord and they were all like "the lord freed me from addiction, etc." and i started thinking about my own drug use and i'm trying to figure out what the point is of quitting, becasue i've been happier than i've felt in a long time because i dont get sad anymore. but it seems a little unnatural--i dont know. i don't know what i'll gain from stopping besides cleaner lungs. but if i find a good reason to quit, i want to. right now, i just don't see the logic behind it if i'm a 19 year old college girl who is just fuckin around in life a bit. i know thats a shitty exccuse too, but seriously, what is the motivation to quit when there are so many worse things i could be doing
none of that was a good excuse and i should just quit but the only reason i'd quit is because i know its bad because thats what people tell me. thats also a bad excuse to quit.
whatever give me hugs
and jokes
well lets see, i'm oakland county field coordinator and thats great. its the first job i've ever had in my life where i've had a really good first day. i'm doing what im interested in and thats awesome, plus i have a big job with people who appreciate my work. i've been coordinating volunteers and events and parades etc., but its awesome.
in addition to that i am spending time at the homeless shelter because i want to study urban poverty etc and i'm in really close contact with an amazing homeless organization that also appreciates my work. :)
i got another aquarium which has catfish and glowfish right now, i'm prepping the tank for when i get glasscats. which are my top priority. :)
at the homeless shelter today, they talked about being healed and what it feels like to be saved by the lord and they were all like "the lord freed me from addiction, etc." and i started thinking about my own drug use and i'm trying to figure out what the point is of quitting, becasue i've been happier than i've felt in a long time because i dont get sad anymore. but it seems a little unnatural--i dont know. i don't know what i'll gain from stopping besides cleaner lungs. but if i find a good reason to quit, i want to. right now, i just don't see the logic behind it if i'm a 19 year old college girl who is just fuckin around in life a bit. i know thats a shitty exccuse too, but seriously, what is the motivation to quit when there are so many worse things i could be doing
none of that was a good excuse and i should just quit but the only reason i'd quit is because i know its bad because thats what people tell me. thats also a bad excuse to quit.
whatever give me hugs
and jokes