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Wow, I haven't updated since Monday. A few things happened...
On Tuesday, there was that anniversary celebration for everybody. I had to look after our class room with Silke and Steffi from 11-12am. I talked with Sonja a lot and I left 10 minutes before my shift ended. Silke and Steffi were really pissed with me because of that. And they were pissed with me because I didn't talk to them that much. Steffi should have come to my house to study Biology with me but she just left to an appointment and she didn't call or anything. I sent her a SMS in the evening but she didn't reply. I met her on my way to school and she told me that my behaviour sucked. She said that it was unsocial to leave earlier than I was allowed to leave and she thought it sucked that I didn't really care about her. You know, I promised her to care a bit more about her in Husum. I don't know why. I hate me. Why did I do that? Silke wasn't that pissed with me. She even asked me out to meet on Wednesday. But Steffi seems to be still pissed with me. I mean, I apologized and she talks to me but I notice that something is wrong. I think, she doesn't want to have contact with me outside of school anymore. I feel terrible. I want her as a friend.
I suck.
Well, things were kinda normal today. Nothing special. I just don't feel comfortable.
On Tuesday, there was that anniversary celebration for everybody. I had to look after our class room with Silke and Steffi from 11-12am. I talked with Sonja a lot and I left 10 minutes before my shift ended. Silke and Steffi were really pissed with me because of that. And they were pissed with me because I didn't talk to them that much. Steffi should have come to my house to study Biology with me but she just left to an appointment and she didn't call or anything. I sent her a SMS in the evening but she didn't reply. I met her on my way to school and she told me that my behaviour sucked. She said that it was unsocial to leave earlier than I was allowed to leave and she thought it sucked that I didn't really care about her. You know, I promised her to care a bit more about her in Husum. I don't know why. I hate me. Why did I do that? Silke wasn't that pissed with me. She even asked me out to meet on Wednesday. But Steffi seems to be still pissed with me. I mean, I apologized and she talks to me but I notice that something is wrong. I think, she doesn't want to have contact with me outside of school anymore. I feel terrible. I want her as a friend.
I suck.
Well, things were kinda normal today. Nothing special. I just don't feel comfortable.