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so while waiting for my cold medicine to kick in i started doing some thinking.
i've been single for a while now and it's a weird thought to think that i've been without a boyfriend for that long. i always have a boy there and i hate being alone. being independant is such a change and i've learned a lot since josh and i ended last march. i've had so many new experiences and i've learned so much about myself and the people around me that i feel like a completely different person now. i have new friends, new feelings, and a new outlook on life. there have been so many changes and i'm so appreciative of every one i've gone through.
i was at the lowest point i've ever been at during the last semester of high school and i'm so glad i made it through and that i'm ok now. i'm in a new place but sometimes those feelings still come back and i'm forced to confront all the old shit that used to torture me daily but like i said, i'm ok.
so now, like i always say, i'm in a pickle. i'm having a lot of mixed feelings towards a bunch of different things and i'm being forced to make decisions between letting my guard down and just going with the flow, or attempting to save myself from possibly getting really hurt in the future. what to do, what to do.. i need some clarity and i'm in need of more honesty! talk to me, let me know how you're feeling!
and so while i close the book on one chapter, i'm moving on to a new one. i'm ready for whatever comes and i know i can handle it. time heals all wounds!
i've been single for a while now and it's a weird thought to think that i've been without a boyfriend for that long. i always have a boy there and i hate being alone. being independant is such a change and i've learned a lot since josh and i ended last march. i've had so many new experiences and i've learned so much about myself and the people around me that i feel like a completely different person now. i have new friends, new feelings, and a new outlook on life. there have been so many changes and i'm so appreciative of every one i've gone through.
i was at the lowest point i've ever been at during the last semester of high school and i'm so glad i made it through and that i'm ok now. i'm in a new place but sometimes those feelings still come back and i'm forced to confront all the old shit that used to torture me daily but like i said, i'm ok.
so now, like i always say, i'm in a pickle. i'm having a lot of mixed feelings towards a bunch of different things and i'm being forced to make decisions between letting my guard down and just going with the flow, or attempting to save myself from possibly getting really hurt in the future. what to do, what to do.. i need some clarity and i'm in need of more honesty! talk to me, let me know how you're feeling!
and so while i close the book on one chapter, i'm moving on to a new one. i'm ready for whatever comes and i know i can handle it. time heals all wounds!