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haven't updated in a while..
just cuz something really pisses me off right now....
alright here's the thing.. I'm really not dumb.. cuz i understand math, science, languages pretty fast.. and really get and can use it on test and i do good.. but like anything else.. like writing essays.. is truely not my thing but thats ok i guess. but the part that really makes upset.. like in history.. i get the things.. but i just can keep the information in my head.. i read it over and over again and i just can't keep it until the test is on.. It's not that i'm not interested in that stuff.. i think it's important to know.. eventhough it sometimes gets annoying.. but just CANNOT keep it in my head.. i could do anything and it doesn't work.. I'm not dumb.. but seriously what is that?! It's really making me upset.. cuz u just subjects like history are just stupid subjects were u just have to write about sthm u just read a couple times.. it's easy to everyone.. but not to me.. y am i so retarded.. i really don't get it and i hate it.. cuz it makes people think i'm stupid..(like my dad or my brother)... and i'm seriously not stupid.. I don't care about my grades here but i care about my grades in germany.. and it's not about the language.. it's about the ability to keep things in ur head.. and it's just stuff like school stuff.. that i can't keep.. i mean.. i know sooo many phone#s.. i never have to check my phone if someone ask me for a friends number.. or if i meet 10 people at a time.. i don't need a second to learn their names.. so yeah.. i'm just retarded i guess.. and not in a cool way... =(
just cuz something really pisses me off right now....
alright here's the thing.. I'm really not dumb.. cuz i understand math, science, languages pretty fast.. and really get and can use it on test and i do good.. but like anything else.. like writing essays.. is truely not my thing but thats ok i guess. but the part that really makes upset.. like in history.. i get the things.. but i just can keep the information in my head.. i read it over and over again and i just can't keep it until the test is on.. It's not that i'm not interested in that stuff.. i think it's important to know.. eventhough it sometimes gets annoying.. but just CANNOT keep it in my head.. i could do anything and it doesn't work.. I'm not dumb.. but seriously what is that?! It's really making me upset.. cuz u just subjects like history are just stupid subjects were u just have to write about sthm u just read a couple times.. it's easy to everyone.. but not to me.. y am i so retarded.. i really don't get it and i hate it.. cuz it makes people think i'm stupid..(like my dad or my brother)... and i'm seriously not stupid.. I don't care about my grades here but i care about my grades in germany.. and it's not about the language.. it's about the ability to keep things in ur head.. and it's just stuff like school stuff.. that i can't keep.. i mean.. i know sooo many phone#s.. i never have to check my phone if someone ask me for a friends number.. or if i meet 10 people at a time.. i don't need a second to learn their names.. so yeah.. i'm just retarded i guess.. and not in a cool way... =(