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I don't often admit to having a truly bad idea. Usually when I say "this is a bad idea," I'm implying that this is very fun but with probably end with me bleeding.
On rare occasions I do something and I really don't like myself after doing them. I find myself trying to blame others but really I was just being a coward. Literally, not even a metaphorical coward who did something stupid and weak though redirecting his fear of a current situation by creating a new one, I was just not wanting to be alone. I keep thinking, "this is probably Mac and Kegan's fault....somehow, cause my wallet is at their house.(speaking of which i need to get that back)
Now I'm wondering how I'm going to be ok with myself for a while. I decided last night I can no longer continue to do this. I really can't. This means that Mac and Amy are right and Alyssa, Kegan and myself are wrong. I don't like that situation.
fuck.
and my tattoo itches a lot.
On rare occasions I do something and I really don't like myself after doing them. I find myself trying to blame others but really I was just being a coward. Literally, not even a metaphorical coward who did something stupid and weak though redirecting his fear of a current situation by creating a new one, I was just not wanting to be alone. I keep thinking, "this is probably Mac and Kegan's fault....somehow, cause my wallet is at their house.(speaking of which i need to get that back)
Now I'm wondering how I'm going to be ok with myself for a while. I decided last night I can no longer continue to do this. I really can't. This means that Mac and Amy are right and Alyssa, Kegan and myself are wrong. I don't like that situation.
fuck.
and my tattoo itches a lot.