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reminiscent music after a night of no sleep--it's amazing to me how much can stay the same, and I love the things I thought I'd never miss.
I searched the internet for something and came up with a lady's online scrapbook for her daughter. It was pages of photographs with little written bits, things she wrote to the girl--a baby photo, a photo of the mom's pregnant belly, photographs of the girl getting older, playing, with food on her face, etc. I looked at it, and I got the heaviest feeling, something bottomless, and I thought of my baby-san and how utterly, utterly in love with her I am, startling, possesive/protective, love, the kind that eats you from the inside until I am nothing, I am only a vessel feeling this, It made me feel a bit like crying, but for no reason. It's just so heavy... I didn't know I could feel this kind of love. It'll change your life, in that figurative way.
I'm reading a feminist magazine...
for the first time in my life, I feel like the treatment of women applies to me.
I think I'm in love with characters from the past, but can't begin to think about taking that seriously. I really do want to walk in Victoria park again, under what terms I'm not sure. The last five years in Victoria Park were an alcoholic haze, or a walk to get stoned, or a place to run around in the nature on mushrooms/etc.
It is pleasant to read blogs of characters from the past sounding human and emotional, something that I think is new. I've been reading for a while, and this has not always been the case.
Does anyone know how to get a hold of aaron beswick?
I searched the internet for something and came up with a lady's online scrapbook for her daughter. It was pages of photographs with little written bits, things she wrote to the girl--a baby photo, a photo of the mom's pregnant belly, photographs of the girl getting older, playing, with food on her face, etc. I looked at it, and I got the heaviest feeling, something bottomless, and I thought of my baby-san and how utterly, utterly in love with her I am, startling, possesive/protective, love, the kind that eats you from the inside until I am nothing, I am only a vessel feeling this, It made me feel a bit like crying, but for no reason. It's just so heavy... I didn't know I could feel this kind of love. It'll change your life, in that figurative way.
I'm reading a feminist magazine...
for the first time in my life, I feel like the treatment of women applies to me.
I think I'm in love with characters from the past, but can't begin to think about taking that seriously. I really do want to walk in Victoria park again, under what terms I'm not sure. The last five years in Victoria Park were an alcoholic haze, or a walk to get stoned, or a place to run around in the nature on mushrooms/etc.
It is pleasant to read blogs of characters from the past sounding human and emotional, something that I think is new. I've been reading for a while, and this has not always been the case.
Does anyone know how to get a hold of aaron beswick?