To The Extreme
Wednesday is the middle day -- so it leaves me wondering why today has been a day of extremes. First off, it's sunny and dark/rainy -- in the same sky at the same time -- how does that work? Second of all -- I had stuff to do at work today and then I had nothing at all to do. It came in patches! Colleen stopped by and hung out in the little study tables near the lab -- so I got to talk to her some. That's happy vuz I haven't seen her for a couple of days :( :) -- also happy/sad.
I finally heard back from John -- he's been sick (stupid voices, we didn't cover that one). I was happy to hear from him, but he really didn't talk much about what I said on Friday. Just that he was happy that my expectations weren't too high....so I'm dissatisfied. I don't know why. I'm not sure what I wanted to hear or what I expected to hear for that matter. He wants me to come up for the NE game this weekend -- too bad I have a conference. But that's better for my career - I should really be keeping my eye on that and not on my social life.
That introduces yet another extreme -- I'm excited about the whole prospect of doing gorilla work, but not about staying in Omaha. Then Jeff comes up with the question "where will that get you?," like what are my ultimate life goals and will such a project set me on the path to meet them. Hell, I DON'T KNOW. I might wanna be a professor, I might wanna work in a zoo, I might wanna go off into the jungle and never come out, I might wanna be Crocadile Dundee for all I know. Sheesh! I hate making decisions that effect the rest of MY LIFE! AAAHHHHHH!
On a happier note, I'm going to go do Yoga with Erin tonight. Female bonding and self enlightenment all roled into one --- can't beat that!
me
I finally heard back from John -- he's been sick (stupid voices, we didn't cover that one). I was happy to hear from him, but he really didn't talk much about what I said on Friday. Just that he was happy that my expectations weren't too high....so I'm dissatisfied. I don't know why. I'm not sure what I wanted to hear or what I expected to hear for that matter. He wants me to come up for the NE game this weekend -- too bad I have a conference. But that's better for my career - I should really be keeping my eye on that and not on my social life.
That introduces yet another extreme -- I'm excited about the whole prospect of doing gorilla work, but not about staying in Omaha. Then Jeff comes up with the question "where will that get you?," like what are my ultimate life goals and will such a project set me on the path to meet them. Hell, I DON'T KNOW. I might wanna be a professor, I might wanna work in a zoo, I might wanna go off into the jungle and never come out, I might wanna be Crocadile Dundee for all I know. Sheesh! I hate making decisions that effect the rest of MY LIFE! AAAHHHHHH!
On a happier note, I'm going to go do Yoga with Erin tonight. Female bonding and self enlightenment all roled into one --- can't beat that!
me