pondering
So here I sit, staring over the cliff of a big layoff hitting on Thursday...
It used to be the case that I was pretty comfortable, and didn't worry about these things. This time, I'm the "last one in" the group, just now finishing up a project that I was brought on for, and was originally going to be done by contractors, and there's a longevity component to the selection process for who's getting cut. It also used to be the case that I could always point to someone and say "yes, they're doing a worse job than me", but being in this group for now 7 months and 2 weeks, I can't yet do that.
Well, it's taking over all my brain - it's all I can think about now.
Today, I at least have hope of backup jobs I could find, but it's still not what I'd prefer to do. This job is actually what I want to do for the most part. Besides that, I think it's become a bit of my identity working here...
So, 42 hours from now, I could be unemployed. NOT what I want to have happen. Today's only solace is there's nothing I can do about it. On the other hand, that also means there's a significant chance any work I do is meaningless, so motivation is near zero as well.
Add a cold on top of that, and it makes for the perfect week.
But hey, "24" is off to a great start!
It used to be the case that I was pretty comfortable, and didn't worry about these things. This time, I'm the "last one in" the group, just now finishing up a project that I was brought on for, and was originally going to be done by contractors, and there's a longevity component to the selection process for who's getting cut. It also used to be the case that I could always point to someone and say "yes, they're doing a worse job than me", but being in this group for now 7 months and 2 weeks, I can't yet do that.
Well, it's taking over all my brain - it's all I can think about now.
Today, I at least have hope of backup jobs I could find, but it's still not what I'd prefer to do. This job is actually what I want to do for the most part. Besides that, I think it's become a bit of my identity working here...
So, 42 hours from now, I could be unemployed. NOT what I want to have happen. Today's only solace is there's nothing I can do about it. On the other hand, that also means there's a significant chance any work I do is meaningless, so motivation is near zero as well.
Add a cold on top of that, and it makes for the perfect week.
But hey, "24" is off to a great start!