On the Topic of Spirituality
In recent weeks I have had a sudden spark of spirituality. Now those of you who know me well know that I am pretty much lacking in any religious beliefs whatsoever. It's not that I am a hardcore Atheist and deny any possibility of a god at all, it is just that I have failed as of yet to find a religion that fits my worldview. I am open to listening to others' beliefs, and in fact, I love listening. I'm not too keen on having people yelling at me that I am going to Hell, but if you are respectful about informing me about your beliefs, by all means, please inform me. I respect you; I respect the fact that you want to share your inner peace with the world, but please also respect me if I do not feel that your religion is the right one for me.
I have given some thought into a few religions, but not enough to really accept any fully. Generally I will hit a snag when researching a religion, and I am just unable to see past that snag. In the past it was a belief in a god, or gods. I have always had a difficult time accepting a higher power beyond myself. That's not to say that I believe I am the supreme being, or that nothing is influencing the way I think. I just have always believed that if I want something to happen, I have all the willpower I need to be able to do it. I know this is not always the case, but I have always failed to see how letting yourself go to the supposed strengths of a higher power will help you, a normal human, overcome something. I would certainly feel much better after I overcame something if I knew I did it all by myself. Now there have been times when I wish I had something to cling to, a safety line if you will. These situations are very rare, but they do happen. It is during these times that I pray to my nonexistent deity and cling to a talisman until it practically cuts into my hand. It has always been my own private ritual. This is how I feel faith should be. It is a personal matter and should not be discussed unless directly asked. As much as I enjoy listening and having respectful conversation about religion, I still feel that my faith in my own personal ideal and is not something I should press upon others.
As I said in the beginning of my journal, I have had a spark of spirituality recently. There have been some recent circumstances that have made me re-examine my spiritual beliefs (or lack there of). Now I will not got into detail about these circumstances, but I will say that they have caused me to begin researching religions and gain an interest in the various religious institutions I could visit in the area. I really hope to go to certain religious services in the area to learn about the various spiritual beliefs and hopefully find something that feels right to me. I know I will be too shy to go alone however, so if you are reading this and you want to take me to your church or other spiritual temple, or you would like to accompany me, feel free to let me know.
I know this journal is a whole lot of rambling that no one is likely to read, but it makes me feel better and it helps me get some of my thoughts in order.
"I believe that I'm not sure what to believe and I believe I should stop believing what other people believe because I don't believe that works." -Tryp
I have given some thought into a few religions, but not enough to really accept any fully. Generally I will hit a snag when researching a religion, and I am just unable to see past that snag. In the past it was a belief in a god, or gods. I have always had a difficult time accepting a higher power beyond myself. That's not to say that I believe I am the supreme being, or that nothing is influencing the way I think. I just have always believed that if I want something to happen, I have all the willpower I need to be able to do it. I know this is not always the case, but I have always failed to see how letting yourself go to the supposed strengths of a higher power will help you, a normal human, overcome something. I would certainly feel much better after I overcame something if I knew I did it all by myself. Now there have been times when I wish I had something to cling to, a safety line if you will. These situations are very rare, but they do happen. It is during these times that I pray to my nonexistent deity and cling to a talisman until it practically cuts into my hand. It has always been my own private ritual. This is how I feel faith should be. It is a personal matter and should not be discussed unless directly asked. As much as I enjoy listening and having respectful conversation about religion, I still feel that my faith in my own personal ideal and is not something I should press upon others.
As I said in the beginning of my journal, I have had a spark of spirituality recently. There have been some recent circumstances that have made me re-examine my spiritual beliefs (or lack there of). Now I will not got into detail about these circumstances, but I will say that they have caused me to begin researching religions and gain an interest in the various religious institutions I could visit in the area. I really hope to go to certain religious services in the area to learn about the various spiritual beliefs and hopefully find something that feels right to me. I know I will be too shy to go alone however, so if you are reading this and you want to take me to your church or other spiritual temple, or you would like to accompany me, feel free to let me know.
I know this journal is a whole lot of rambling that no one is likely to read, but it makes me feel better and it helps me get some of my thoughts in order.
"I believe that I'm not sure what to believe and I believe I should stop believing what other people believe because I don't believe that works." -Tryp