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Well.. after much talking last sunday, Matt and I have decided to abstain from speaking until July, at which time we're going to give this whole thing a shot again, because we both believe in us, and believe things can work out.
Now, I've not been the best with my end of the bargain, but things got a lot worse for me the wednesday before we had this talk. The day after we broke up. But I've been trying, and failing miserably.
I've seen him at work, and even drunk dialed him this past sunday. (Something for which I knew monday morning that he'd be angry about, so I gave him a few days to cool off and apologized to his voicemail for today.)
I have to ask him one more question, about my taxes, which he did for me, and I told him that I fully intend on giving him his space after we talk about that.. something I would have told him more about when he called, had he given me the chance.
I've been thinking about just letting him go. I want him to be happy. And it seems that I keep making everything worse..
and then I think about how worth it he is to me. All the pain I'm feeling now totally sucks, but I'm glad I have it because it means that I can truly feel how much he means to me. And I know that I'm worth all of this too. I just hope he realizes that.
Now, I've not been the best with my end of the bargain, but things got a lot worse for me the wednesday before we had this talk. The day after we broke up. But I've been trying, and failing miserably.
I've seen him at work, and even drunk dialed him this past sunday. (Something for which I knew monday morning that he'd be angry about, so I gave him a few days to cool off and apologized to his voicemail for today.)
I have to ask him one more question, about my taxes, which he did for me, and I told him that I fully intend on giving him his space after we talk about that.. something I would have told him more about when he called, had he given me the chance.
I've been thinking about just letting him go. I want him to be happy. And it seems that I keep making everything worse..
and then I think about how worth it he is to me. All the pain I'm feeling now totally sucks, but I'm glad I have it because it means that I can truly feel how much he means to me. And I know that I'm worth all of this too. I just hope he realizes that.