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I never knew having sex so many times in a 12 hour period would feel so liberating.. but it does.
The guy next to me is tapping on the desk to the rhythm of whatever he's listening to. I think it's the Bay City Rollers. It's annoying. He's also breathing really really loudly. It's totally unnecessary. I want to gag him.
Today, 14 years ago, my grandmother passed away. I miss her, and it breaks my heart to think of her on days like today, when it is sunny, and warm, and I am insatiably in love with Matt (I always am.. but I love him with such a hunger that sometimes it's almost too much to bear.) and all I want is for her to be here.. with me.
Things just get so complicated sometimes, and it's amazing how they unravel with an exhale, a thrust, a whimper, a whisper. My feelings of sorrow and inadequacy fade away when we melt together.
I love how good it feels to melt.
The guy next to me is tapping on the desk to the rhythm of whatever he's listening to. I think it's the Bay City Rollers. It's annoying. He's also breathing really really loudly. It's totally unnecessary. I want to gag him.
Today, 14 years ago, my grandmother passed away. I miss her, and it breaks my heart to think of her on days like today, when it is sunny, and warm, and I am insatiably in love with Matt (I always am.. but I love him with such a hunger that sometimes it's almost too much to bear.) and all I want is for her to be here.. with me.
Things just get so complicated sometimes, and it's amazing how they unravel with an exhale, a thrust, a whimper, a whisper. My feelings of sorrow and inadequacy fade away when we melt together.
I love how good it feels to melt.