I'm addicted to your punishment.....
After a moonlit walk along Westport's beaches last night.. and an outpouring of heart and soul, including my grandmother...and her... I've decided that I don't care what the circumstances are swirling our relationship.
I've already told you that I don't care about compromising tentative optimal time frames for certain events. Marriage, kids, moving in together. A year or two later than hoped will not throw things much. The one thing I'm not compromising there, though, is who will be where you are. I will not have anyone but you.
Everything is a sign around us. Something is trying to make it obvious and unavoidable that we should be together. Stones on the radio, the feeling I had when I first kissed you, the transpiration of events since then, and especially the fact that I know I will be the only woman you see for the rest of your life.
I know we were meant for each other. I know you saved me from a lot of pain I thought I was never going to get away from. You make me a better person, and I can credit you with that because I've always wanted to BE a better person, but you just bring that out in me. I have just been a better person in the past 3 months. I don't have to TRY anymore.
I am afraid because I am not afraid of anything with you, and being vulnerable has never felt so safe and so sure.
I know you feel all of this too. You've told me this, but I have to tell you... even if you had never told me, I'd still know. Your eyes give you away.
I've already told you that I don't care about compromising tentative optimal time frames for certain events. Marriage, kids, moving in together. A year or two later than hoped will not throw things much. The one thing I'm not compromising there, though, is who will be where you are. I will not have anyone but you.
Everything is a sign around us. Something is trying to make it obvious and unavoidable that we should be together. Stones on the radio, the feeling I had when I first kissed you, the transpiration of events since then, and especially the fact that I know I will be the only woman you see for the rest of your life.
I know we were meant for each other. I know you saved me from a lot of pain I thought I was never going to get away from. You make me a better person, and I can credit you with that because I've always wanted to BE a better person, but you just bring that out in me. I have just been a better person in the past 3 months. I don't have to TRY anymore.
I am afraid because I am not afraid of anything with you, and being vulnerable has never felt so safe and so sure.
I know you feel all of this too. You've told me this, but I have to tell you... even if you had never told me, I'd still know. Your eyes give you away.