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so i've been in here for over four weeks and i am getting out soon and i am actually a little afraid. life has been on pause for me for four weeks and now its going to all of a sudden pick up. my whole july is gone. really i've been here all july. this is so crazy sooo crazy. i feel like i am gonna be fucked up mentally and physically for a long time. i missed a lot of firsts and i need to experience life but i am so afraid and i hope this fear doesnt cripple me from being outgoing meeting new people and living life. i have been alone and isolated for so long and taken care of that i dont kno if i cant take care of myself anymore.