03NOV08 psychosis
This morning at work I had the worse degree of psychosis to date. There was a swarm of crystals having a 5 to 1 aspect ratio and variously beveled ends lighting up red, blue, yellow, white and black. The black ones were fascinating in that they would light up and radiate blackness. All the crystals were either horizontal or vertical. They would dance and bounce around forming patterns and lines moving all over my visual field, but much more concentrated on the left until I was virtually blinded on the left side. This activity lasted about three hours and was mood incongruent. My mood was stable except that as this went on and on I became irritable. During this episode I was able to act as though things were okay and did my job to the best of my ability.
Later in the afternoon I went to see my psychiatrist. Ne didn’t have much in the way of insight for me other than wanting to increase my antipsychotic medications, which I declined. Amy still thinks I should be reclassified from bipolar 1 with psychotic features to schizoaffective of the bipolar type. It wouldn’t affect my treatment, so why bother.
Anyway it’s late and I’m going to bed.
Later in the afternoon I went to see my psychiatrist. Ne didn’t have much in the way of insight for me other than wanting to increase my antipsychotic medications, which I declined. Amy still thinks I should be reclassified from bipolar 1 with psychotic features to schizoaffective of the bipolar type. It wouldn’t affect my treatment, so why bother.
Anyway it’s late and I’m going to bed.