My meds, and my mom's meds

[tg_myths_secret]

I saw my shrink Tuesday and we’ve dropped another med. He said I should be unstable and feared I would go manic at any moment. I’m just on 2 psych meds and I’m thinking of dropping the anti-depressant. To properly complete this medication makeover, all I need is raging mania, uncontrolled psychosis, crushing depressions, grandiose delusions, and

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[elvenforever]

First of all, I'm sorry to hear about your mom, and especially the fact that she's in pain. I'm glad the tumor was benign. My in-laws are fond of your folks -- please pass on their best wishes, as well as mine. They'll be sad to hear she was hospitalized.

Isn't it completely horrible and disappointing when you DON'T go insane according to expectations when the meds are removed? What a disappointment you are! Make your psychiatrist happy and fake some insanity, b'okay?

Seriously, I'm not shocked, not only because of my experience, but especially because of Sean's. Sean used to be on Depakote and Klonopin. He's been on nothing for YEARS. Apparently, being on the autism spectrum is a HUGE advantage when it comes to dealing with bipolar. He's got himself well under control.

Also, saw my psychiatrist lately and just shot the breeze a bit. She's extremely philosophical about things like anti-psychotics -- if her patients are comfortable hallucinating and don't want to take anti-psychotics, that's fine with her. (Assuming, I am sure, that such hallucinations don't cause themselves or anyone else harm, which is very often the case.)

I think you need to take 20mg. of ergot before you fall asleep at night. If that doesn't solve all your problems, you will at least no longer care about whatever problems you have. :) TLP only accepts cash, however. :)

[tg_myths_secret]

I saw my mom tonight and she’s doing a bit better. Apparently somebody was having a bad day yesterday. I’m unsure if it was mom, dad, or both. Mom didn’t say much to me tonight but she did enjoy talking to people on the phone. She said she had been suffering for four months. I thought I have been suffering for thirty-three years, but mental illness isn’t real, so I bit my tong.

I agree, autistic traits lend a person an opportunity to deal with life’s crap creatively and effectively. If I were to sit quietly in the corner smiling, would my shrink recognize that I had gone insane? Would he know that although I answer his questions reasonably I have in fact lost touch with reality? Can a shrink who doesn’t understand autism recognize an autistic lunatic? If I’m in my control room, am I psychotic? Do you see what I see? As meds have been removed, other psychological controls have been reinforced, but Dr. K. will probably want to take it to mean that I’m not really as sick as I claim. The antipsychotic made no difference to my hallucinations.

Ergot taken at bedtime just keeps me up watching the pretty colors. Obviously it needs to be taken before driving. Isn’t it amazing what you can get at the Timothy Leary pharmacy? Morning Glory seeds do nearly as well as ergot, but don’t require the nasty weather.

[elvenforever]

You're a really good kid, you know that? I think back to when my mom was hospitalized and both my dad and I had to YELL at my brother just to get him to CALL. Bro and sis-in-law DID eventually have a bouquet delivered after Mom got home, but she would much rather have had THEM. Even Sean came with me once. This is the brother, remember, who defends my parents to the death and is sorry I don't love them. :) To visit your mom in the face of overwhelming and continual rejection -- like I said, you're a GOOD daughter. If they were my parents, I would have written them off. Believe me, I did that more than once, escaping to another state just to get away from them. They were lucky they knew where I lived and how to contact me, let's just put it that way. I have had other periods in my life where they didn't even know THAT much. I'm honestly glad that all that is behind us and we have worked our problems out. But that's because THEY were willing to play ball. I truly respect them for the many positive changes they have made, and am VERY grateful and appreciative they loved and valued me enough to make those choices. Your family sounds fairly incorrigible, from what you've told me. I am so, so sorry about that.

Shrinks are aware their patients lie to them. :) I discussed that very fact with my psychiatrist. Nonetheless, I think you're quite capable of confusing your shrink. :)

I hear they shifted the location of the Timothy Leary pharmacy. Again. You'll have to update me on where they've moved it to now. :)

[tg_myths_secret]

No silly, the Timothy Leary pharmacy hasn’t moved, it’s right where it has always been. On street corners and back alleys, corporate boardrooms and art galleries, football stadiums and university facility lounges. Anywhere that the human consciousness needs expanding. The trick is recognizing the pharmacist.

[elvenforever]

Ah...now I am enlightened! (But wasn't that the point?) :)

[tg_myths_secret]

You’ve enlightened me about banana slugs, (oh such fantasies I’ve had) I’m glad I could return the favor.

[elvenforever]

LOLOL!!!