On becoming Carol
It’s been a while since I’ve posted here; I’ve been busy working as a glass bevel grinder. When I started the job, in the first week of July, it didn’t take me long to realize that the degree of the tremors I have as a side effect of the medications I’m on is not compatible with hand grinding glass. So far I’ve only ruined a few pieces and I’m the only person troubled by this.
In an effort to get my shaking under control I’ve switched mood stabilizers from Trileptal to lithium. (I thought the Trileptal was the problem.) I still have the shakes at the same level as before. Yesterday morning I began taking Porpranolol, and it seemed that during work I was relatively stable, with fewer problems than before. Today however, I feel as shaky as ever. I may have to up the dose to give this med a fair shot. If I don’t improve, I’ll discontinue the Zyprexa, then the Wellbutrin, leaving me on lithium mono-therapy and dealing with the mood episodes psychologically. I’m sure my psychiatrist won’t agree with dropping meds until I regain physical stability putting my emotional stability at risk.
I’ve been focusing most of my free time to reading and working on my book. Unfortunately I screwed up and lost a full week of writing.
I’ve taken what I’ve been told is a big step in my gender transition. I’ve gotten a legal name change from the court. Now I have to get the change registered at the bank, power, water, phone, mortgage, drivers license, passport, the IRS, basically anyplace I do business that may be considered to be a creditor. This also means getting things changed with the temp agency I’m working through. I suppose the FBI and CBI already know since I had to send my fingerprints to both to get this far (Colorado has the most draconian laws concerning name change of any state in the union.)
So from now on I’m Carol Jean, but I’ll still answer to CJ.
In an effort to get my shaking under control I’ve switched mood stabilizers from Trileptal to lithium. (I thought the Trileptal was the problem.) I still have the shakes at the same level as before. Yesterday morning I began taking Porpranolol, and it seemed that during work I was relatively stable, with fewer problems than before. Today however, I feel as shaky as ever. I may have to up the dose to give this med a fair shot. If I don’t improve, I’ll discontinue the Zyprexa, then the Wellbutrin, leaving me on lithium mono-therapy and dealing with the mood episodes psychologically. I’m sure my psychiatrist won’t agree with dropping meds until I regain physical stability putting my emotional stability at risk.
I’ve been focusing most of my free time to reading and working on my book. Unfortunately I screwed up and lost a full week of writing.
I’ve taken what I’ve been told is a big step in my gender transition. I’ve gotten a legal name change from the court. Now I have to get the change registered at the bank, power, water, phone, mortgage, drivers license, passport, the IRS, basically anyplace I do business that may be considered to be a creditor. This also means getting things changed with the temp agency I’m working through. I suppose the FBI and CBI already know since I had to send my fingerprints to both to get this far (Colorado has the most draconian laws concerning name change of any state in the union.)
So from now on I’m Carol Jean, but I’ll still answer to CJ.