Depression kills...
Recently, I have been suffering from depression..
I suddenly cried...
I suddenly changed mood..
I suddenly lost focus..
I suddenly lost the willingness to MOVE ON
and the SILENCE at home kills me..
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOH..
If this continues...
I don't know what will happen to me..
I wanted to make a blog
But I just couldn't put my thoughts into words..
I couldn't type..
I couldn't think properly..
It was like I was losing control of myself.
It was like I was getting insane...
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOH!!!...
I am trying to overcome my depression..
by traveling, shopping and watching anime...
but I end up being unhappy...
Sometimes I wonder what I am going to do when I finally resign from my job...
That really means I am going to stay at home alone...
nwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah...
I quit in order to have more focus on my studies and health.
but it seems it will be too hard for me..
I already lost FOCUS...
I just realize that my depression only wears off when I am at work...
*sighs*
I can't turn back now...
I finally submitted my resignation letter to the HR department...
What I can do now is to TRUST GOD..
and lifts up all of my anxieties to HIM..
and entrusts my FUTURE PLANS to HIM...
It's because His plans are much better than our plans...
I am trying to move on..
trying to grasp every brink of hope...
trying to visualize the things that can make me happy..
trying to believe that I can reach my goals...
and of course all of my efforts will just be futile without prayers...
If only my
did not malfunction,
it could have been too easy for me.
Well that's life....
I know soon I will be able to move on from this PASSING FANCY...
and I will be revived again as the cheerful tezuka ayumi and become a better person than before..
I suddenly cried...
I suddenly changed mood..
I suddenly lost focus..
I suddenly lost the willingness to MOVE ON
and the SILENCE at home kills me..
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOH..
If this continues...
I don't know what will happen to me..
I wanted to make a blog
But I just couldn't put my thoughts into words..
I couldn't type..
I couldn't think properly..
It was like I was losing control of myself.
It was like I was getting insane...
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOH!!!...
I am trying to overcome my depression..
by traveling, shopping and watching anime...
but I end up being unhappy...
Sometimes I wonder what I am going to do when I finally resign from my job...
That really means I am going to stay at home alone...
nwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah...
I quit in order to have more focus on my studies and health.
but it seems it will be too hard for me..
I already lost FOCUS...
I just realize that my depression only wears off when I am at work...
*sighs*
I can't turn back now...
I finally submitted my resignation letter to the HR department...
What I can do now is to TRUST GOD..
and lifts up all of my anxieties to HIM..
and entrusts my FUTURE PLANS to HIM...
It's because His plans are much better than our plans...
I am trying to move on..
trying to grasp every brink of hope...
trying to visualize the things that can make me happy..
trying to believe that I can reach my goals...
and of course all of my efforts will just be futile without prayers...
If only my
did not malfunction,
it could have been too easy for me.
Well that's life....
I know soon I will be able to move on from this PASSING FANCY...
and I will be revived again as the cheerful tezuka ayumi and become a better person than before..