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I'm so nervous about starting school again. I haven't been a student in... a year now? I went to Ecuador in March of '06, so my last semester was Fall '05. Is that possible?? When I start school again this fall, will it have been two years? No, a year and a half.
Anyway... I've been feeling pretty shitty lately about a lot of different things, and the main thing that consistently makes me feel good is listening to, reading about, finding, exploring good music. Music. Music music music. And I want to do something with that. I want to work in a record store, or... I don't know, something. Maybe this is just my panic about starting school again speaking, but... I mean, I'm still gonna take classes in the fall, I'm obviously not gonna not get a BA if not a master's, but...... I don't know what I want to do!!!!!!!! I know I'm very lucky in that I do know that I really want to be a teacher, I want to do early ed, and that is unwavering. But the question is what route I want to take. I know for sure I want to do early ed, and at UIC as an undergrad I can only do elementary ed and then get a master's in early ed. But maybe it's pointless to do el ed if I know that I want to do early ed anyway. But there's no other school that has as good an ed department in Chicago as UIC. So maybe I want to go somewhere else! And I do, I really do feel the need to get the fuck out of Chicago, in love as I am with this city. I want to live in Naples. I want to live in Mexico City. I want to live in Philly. I want to travel the northwest coast. I want to go go go and see see see. I think about how many places my sister had lived by the time she was 23 and I feel like such a baby. I'm living at home sweet-talking my parents into giving me rides to the red line.
I guess I really don't have to worry so much right now... because let's say I sign a one-year lease starting Sept. I have this great internship at Lab that will last till June '08, I will def be taking classes for two semesters then, and just doing stupid gen ed stuff that is not so stupid because it will help me no matter what I decide to do next/where I decide to transfer to. I'm only committed to one year in Chicago. Which is fine - it's more than fine, I'm excited to spend the next year in Chicago. So I have an entire year to figure out whether I want to take the UIC route or even a Chicago route.
One thing that's been bothering me for a long time is that I don't want to miss out on the liberal arts experience. When I was in high school looking at colleges I already knew I wanted to do early ed but I didn't want to go to school for that right away for this reason. It's been pointed out to me that as I'm looking at early ed programs I should find out if I can take classes in other fields, and that I probably will be able to, so if I can that would be great. But there are so many liberal arts courses out there that I want to take, that I don't want to miss out on.
I'm getting super distracted now, I'm making baba ganoush and my eggplants are done cooling and my attention span is waning anyway.
Oh, music.
Anyway... I've been feeling pretty shitty lately about a lot of different things, and the main thing that consistently makes me feel good is listening to, reading about, finding, exploring good music. Music. Music music music. And I want to do something with that. I want to work in a record store, or... I don't know, something. Maybe this is just my panic about starting school again speaking, but... I mean, I'm still gonna take classes in the fall, I'm obviously not gonna not get a BA if not a master's, but...... I don't know what I want to do!!!!!!!! I know I'm very lucky in that I do know that I really want to be a teacher, I want to do early ed, and that is unwavering. But the question is what route I want to take. I know for sure I want to do early ed, and at UIC as an undergrad I can only do elementary ed and then get a master's in early ed. But maybe it's pointless to do el ed if I know that I want to do early ed anyway. But there's no other school that has as good an ed department in Chicago as UIC. So maybe I want to go somewhere else! And I do, I really do feel the need to get the fuck out of Chicago, in love as I am with this city. I want to live in Naples. I want to live in Mexico City. I want to live in Philly. I want to travel the northwest coast. I want to go go go and see see see. I think about how many places my sister had lived by the time she was 23 and I feel like such a baby. I'm living at home sweet-talking my parents into giving me rides to the red line.
I guess I really don't have to worry so much right now... because let's say I sign a one-year lease starting Sept. I have this great internship at Lab that will last till June '08, I will def be taking classes for two semesters then, and just doing stupid gen ed stuff that is not so stupid because it will help me no matter what I decide to do next/where I decide to transfer to. I'm only committed to one year in Chicago. Which is fine - it's more than fine, I'm excited to spend the next year in Chicago. So I have an entire year to figure out whether I want to take the UIC route or even a Chicago route.
One thing that's been bothering me for a long time is that I don't want to miss out on the liberal arts experience. When I was in high school looking at colleges I already knew I wanted to do early ed but I didn't want to go to school for that right away for this reason. It's been pointed out to me that as I'm looking at early ed programs I should find out if I can take classes in other fields, and that I probably will be able to, so if I can that would be great. But there are so many liberal arts courses out there that I want to take, that I don't want to miss out on.
I'm getting super distracted now, I'm making baba ganoush and my eggplants are done cooling and my attention span is waning anyway.
Oh, music.