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Jul 31, 2011 09:50

 Last night at a show I was talking to one of my friends, and somehow Aaron came up.

He said to me that, essentially, I did everything right.  I respected his time and space, I was there for him when he needed someone to talk to, I comforted him when he was anxious, I was there whenever he wanted to have fun.  My friend added that I was balanced, considerate, interesting, and one of the kindest people he's ever met - that the problem would never have been me, but is clearly to do with him.

And now that I think of this conversation, and about the breakup, I realize that maybe that's why he broke it off.  Maybe it hit him that I was all of these things, and he found himself unable to be all of those things to me because of his own shortcomings.  In retrospect, if I hadn't been so googly-eyed over him from the start, I would have put my foot down and demanded reciprocation.  Demanded to be treated like I know I should.  Like I am all the things that I am.

Worth can be measured in so many different ways, but it's easy to forget how much others value you and why they value you, especially when you decide to chase after a boy who never wanted to be caught.  And, while he does have some very nice qualities, I'd rather have someone who is up to my level in every aspect as a person and in a relationship.  
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