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The recent past, in particular the last week and a half, has been a time of dramatic progress for me. Some of this has been in the wake of me going out of control for a bit. It's as if, in realizing that I needed to make some dramatic changes to get myself back to a safe place, I discovered that the rules I had made for myself didn't need to apply anymore. I'm finally acting on problems that I've avoided for many years, and taking advantage of opportunities I was too timid to even consider.
Just as an example (this one on the "dealing with a negative" side, but plenty of what's going on is just raw positive), after having problems with impulsive spending all my adult life, I finally talked to my therapist about it seriously for the first time this week, something I'd consciously not done ever before. I had already decided this week to go to Debtors Anonymous, which I attempted yesterday but didn't realise the site posted an old meeting time! This is something I've been putting off dealing with for a LONG time and it's caused me a lot of heartache over the years. And, thankfully, the binge that really drove things home to me was, while irresponsible, not going to ruin my life. A couple grand, so definited consequences, but the problem itself could have led to so much worse than that.
Is it so wrong that I'm so proud of some of the books I have as a result now? Heh.
Just as an example (this one on the "dealing with a negative" side, but plenty of what's going on is just raw positive), after having problems with impulsive spending all my adult life, I finally talked to my therapist about it seriously for the first time this week, something I'd consciously not done ever before. I had already decided this week to go to Debtors Anonymous, which I attempted yesterday but didn't realise the site posted an old meeting time! This is something I've been putting off dealing with for a LONG time and it's caused me a lot of heartache over the years. And, thankfully, the binge that really drove things home to me was, while irresponsible, not going to ruin my life. A couple grand, so definited consequences, but the problem itself could have led to so much worse than that.
Is it so wrong that I'm so proud of some of the books I have as a result now? Heh.