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So, alot has happened,as much as i am totally disenchanted by someone right now, i've decided im being really stupid, partially cos it's really hard for me to be mean, its not in my nature, and partially becos i know no matter what i do she wont understand what shes done or even care for that matter. Part of me wants to be friends but the other part of me is like FUCK THAT SHIT i kinda feel like i dont know who she is anymore, and i've really lost a lot of trust between us. I'm sorry i said things to everyone, but i didnt want it to look like i was a bitter person, i think its safe to say we both fucked up, but i dont think you see it that way, so whatever... for the good of the group i forgive you. And Tom, if you read this I am not mad at her cos she chose you. I'm mad cos of what she did, so dont worry about it man, In my book, you and i don't have any beef. I know conor doesnt read this but if by chance anyone should talk to him, I want him to know I wasnt talkin shit about him, and I was just talking to a friend trying to understand shit and what he said really bothered me, so whatever I am guilty as hell for trying to understand something, but NOT for talkin shit. If he wants to hit me he can go ahead and do it, but whatever I wont fight back and he'll feel like a bastard. I am NOT gonna have a pity party for myself though... NO Sir... instead i shall refocus on my professional surfing career, and on my friends and kind of trying to be more selfless less selfish. More give less take. The new me. Anywho I might screw up at first but as of now, for the greater good of mankind, I will think of others first, and be much less self absorbed. I'm sorry brittany. and today Mr. Barker told me today that i needed to learn something and he showed me a piece of paper that said he who forgives ends the quarrel, so I forgive you anna... or at least i'll try, i mean we're friends and its relle tough hatin you so... whatever... hopefully you'll understand this, but if not whatever, its not my prob, anywho now i feel quite cleansed.

-cheers-
David