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I feel like I'm disappearing and no one notices but me!! It's like if I
died no one would know or care...my parents and family would but would
anyone else? For example, say tonight when I'm going to the co-op for
art supplies I get in a car accident and die, my parents would be
called and LSU would be notified but would anyone else know? The campus
is so huge its very likely that no one would hear about it for weeks
maybe months...I guess the band would be informed so they could fill my
spot and my teachers would be told so people could take my seat in
class but what about the people I've met, would they find out? and if
they did would they be sad or would they ask, 'who's jenny?'I don't
have a roommate so no one on my floor would know because I'm gone all
the time as it is so they would just think I was at class or band, well
I guess they would know when my parents came to take my stuff
away...but only like 3 people down here in the basement know my name so
everyone else would be like 'aw that sad, who was she again? oh right
the band girl, i never saw her much, did you?'Knowing that you could
fall off the face of the earth and no one would care is a very
depressing thought and one that makes you wonder why do i even try, why
bother? why indeed? whats the point? why am i even here, wasting my
parents hard earned money when to everyone else its like i dont exist?