Needing to vent....
Ok I know I've been a little MIA lately and I'm sorry. I have been on some sort of cleaning kick lately. I sit down long enough to check my email and myspace (my mom gets nervous if I don't comment to her or if I'm not shown as "Last logged in" on that day, she's so weird...haha).
But to update everyone on what's going on......
About 3wks ago my husband's best friend invited him to go camping this weekend. Well he said the only way he would go is if I and the kids went too cause he would feel so bad leaving us home alone all weekend. Mainly me being 7mns pregnant.
Well I agreed to go as long as we could buy one of those REALLY awesome air matresses, a porta potty (one of those things that look like a reall toilet except you put a bag in it to do ur business) and a well secured tent. He agreed and added that he would get me one of those really cute maternity bathing suits. So we were set...or so I thought.
He gets his check a wk ago and it wasn't as much as we had hoped so he was like "well I guess we can't afford to go." So I told him ti just forget it and go by himself b/c I felt like he shouldn't be punished cause we (me and the kids) couldn't go.
Well he fought it for about 2 days and just kept saying "no I'm not gonna leave you and the kids, that's just not right, I can't do that". SO I asked him if we went to my mom's if he would feel better and he said yeah.
So...I call my mom and ask her. Well she gives me the run around for like 4 days then says no cause my little sister (who is only 14) got caught w/ a botfriend and to top things off he is a race my parents are against their daughters dating. So she was very pissed off and said she was grounded.
WTF?!?!?!?! What does my sister being grounded have to do with us comming over for the wk? Then she goes on to say "but they can go to ur house if you want them too". HUH?? SHE JUST said that my lil sis was grounded?? But she's gonna allow her to leave and come here but we can't go there? *Shakes head* That makes NO DAMN SENSE!!!
Well I guess she realized after a day how stupid that sounded too then called me and said "never mind" ...UUGGHGHGHHG!!!! Well my friend ssaid she would come over for the weekend and stay here with us so if anything happened (since I have been havin braxtin hix for a month now) she would be here.
Then my aunt said that we could stay with her Sat night so that we wouldn't have to be here all weekend" SO I said "sure" Well she calls me yesterday and says "never mond that wont work out cause someone at her work got sick and now she has to fill in for them.
Sooooo....those plans went down the crapper too!!!
Well understandably so I was very pissed and irritated yesterday. I tried so hard for it not to show, cause I didn't wasnt Ricky to think it was cause he was going and I wasn't. Cause that isn't it at all.
I mean, I think I'm pissed at his friend for asking to begin with. Ya know, he KNEW we wouldn't be able to afford for all of us to go, (not like he wanted "US" to go anyways, otherwise he would've asked "us"), he also knew I was pregnant and knew I wouldn't go and wouldn't make him take the kids cause that would be wrong.
Well last night the guilt hit him. He was saying stuff like "I shouldnt be going...u need me here...u mean more to me then them...why did I even say yes, how could I have said yes?" Then called his friend and told him to call him back.
Well I was sitting there trying to convince him to go and have fun that he deserved it and he keep saying "no I'm not going, I wouldn't feel right"
So after 2hrs of trying I said "F*** IT!" If he chooses not to go then he chooses not to go.
Then this morning at about 8am his friend calls, when he's about 2mins from the house, so b4 Ricky picks up I tell him "Just go, please." Well he picks up and his friend says "I'm about 2mins from the house what's up I saw u called last night" And Ricky tells him that he was wanting to know if they were gonan stop for breakfast.
I dunno how to feel right now. I am not mad at my husband for going. I'm not. I can't be I told him to! BUt I am ssssssssssooooooooooooooooooo pissed at his friend for even asking!!!!! That was just the shittiest thing ever!!! Makes me sick!!
UUGGGHHH! Well I'm gonan go clean something, I'm just pissed off to the max!!
But to update everyone on what's going on......
About 3wks ago my husband's best friend invited him to go camping this weekend. Well he said the only way he would go is if I and the kids went too cause he would feel so bad leaving us home alone all weekend. Mainly me being 7mns pregnant.
Well I agreed to go as long as we could buy one of those REALLY awesome air matresses, a porta potty (one of those things that look like a reall toilet except you put a bag in it to do ur business) and a well secured tent. He agreed and added that he would get me one of those really cute maternity bathing suits. So we were set...or so I thought.
He gets his check a wk ago and it wasn't as much as we had hoped so he was like "well I guess we can't afford to go." So I told him ti just forget it and go by himself b/c I felt like he shouldn't be punished cause we (me and the kids) couldn't go.
Well he fought it for about 2 days and just kept saying "no I'm not gonna leave you and the kids, that's just not right, I can't do that". SO I asked him if we went to my mom's if he would feel better and he said yeah.
So...I call my mom and ask her. Well she gives me the run around for like 4 days then says no cause my little sister (who is only 14) got caught w/ a botfriend and to top things off he is a race my parents are against their daughters dating. So she was very pissed off and said she was grounded.
WTF?!?!?!?! What does my sister being grounded have to do with us comming over for the wk? Then she goes on to say "but they can go to ur house if you want them too". HUH?? SHE JUST said that my lil sis was grounded?? But she's gonna allow her to leave and come here but we can't go there? *Shakes head* That makes NO DAMN SENSE!!!
Well I guess she realized after a day how stupid that sounded too then called me and said "never mind" ...UUGGHGHGHHG!!!! Well my friend ssaid she would come over for the weekend and stay here with us so if anything happened (since I have been havin braxtin hix for a month now) she would be here.
Then my aunt said that we could stay with her Sat night so that we wouldn't have to be here all weekend" SO I said "sure" Well she calls me yesterday and says "never mond that wont work out cause someone at her work got sick and now she has to fill in for them.
Sooooo....those plans went down the crapper too!!!
Well understandably so I was very pissed and irritated yesterday. I tried so hard for it not to show, cause I didn't wasnt Ricky to think it was cause he was going and I wasn't. Cause that isn't it at all.
I mean, I think I'm pissed at his friend for asking to begin with. Ya know, he KNEW we wouldn't be able to afford for all of us to go, (not like he wanted "US" to go anyways, otherwise he would've asked "us"), he also knew I was pregnant and knew I wouldn't go and wouldn't make him take the kids cause that would be wrong.
Well last night the guilt hit him. He was saying stuff like "I shouldnt be going...u need me here...u mean more to me then them...why did I even say yes, how could I have said yes?" Then called his friend and told him to call him back.
Well I was sitting there trying to convince him to go and have fun that he deserved it and he keep saying "no I'm not going, I wouldn't feel right"
So after 2hrs of trying I said "F*** IT!" If he chooses not to go then he chooses not to go.
Then this morning at about 8am his friend calls, when he's about 2mins from the house, so b4 Ricky picks up I tell him "Just go, please." Well he picks up and his friend says "I'm about 2mins from the house what's up I saw u called last night" And Ricky tells him that he was wanting to know if they were gonan stop for breakfast.
I dunno how to feel right now. I am not mad at my husband for going. I'm not. I can't be I told him to! BUt I am ssssssssssooooooooooooooooooo pissed at his friend for even asking!!!!! That was just the shittiest thing ever!!! Makes me sick!!
UUGGGHHH! Well I'm gonan go clean something, I'm just pissed off to the max!!